heeheeheeeeeeeeee Kel!!

I agree that we need to shift our focus. All of us have lost and gained and lost and gained and on and on.

The thing is . . . we are all amazing women who are incredibly busy and the fact that we spend more time than not taking care of ourselves is huge! I am surprised we havent spent MORE time on the couch inhaling food to be honest.

So, lets shake off the past bcos all we have is now.

So, for today I am happy that I havent killed my boss for texting me at friggin' 8.30am and am happy that I did not go out and get a huge assed blueberry bagel from Gloria Jeans :D

Hi guys, first off - sorry for being away for a few weeks - life gets away from you sometimes. I'm still plugging away at the diet, doing ok, I guess. Hubby is off work for the next 2 weeks so we can spend some quality time together (if ya know what I mean :)). 'Spose the only problem with that is that we might "treat ourselves" food wise. Ah well, as long as I'm sensible about it I probably won't do too much damage. We will just have to work it off! bwahaha.

Oh & BTW on my last blog post I posted progress pics - In the words of Magda Szubanski "look at me, I'm a fox!!"

Lila your blog doesnt work :( booooooo! ;)

Oh this is Dan - I changed my username cos some peeps in my "real" life are snooping about. Buggers.

I would rather keep this part of my life private so I can be honest and upfront without feeling censored if that makes sense?

I had a huge sleep this afternoon - went into work for half a day and got really nauseous and left. But I will have to go in tmro. Too bad I dont actually get paid for weekends . . . ick.

Hope everyone is having a good weekend!

Kel I am going to find a pole pic for you tmro :D

Amy I think because codeine is used in the manufacture of illegal street drugs that it cant be bought OTC in the states. I also know that once upon a time you could buy codeine liquid here for a cvold but now they have a register. Dont even know if u CAN still get it at all.

Lila welcome back. we all have our lapses in visiting then pop back in again.

Right now i am sitting at the dining table having a midori and lemonade (my 1st ever) and its quite nice. not good for the hips i suppose b ut its helping dull the pain lol.

Oh my goodness I used to love a Midori! I remember some drink that had midori and pineapple juice in it. Yum.

Gen are you home safely yet?

Originally Posted by Madison:
Lila your blog doesnt work :( booooooo! ;)

FIXED! I put the wrong URL before - what an idiot!

Oh & I totally understand you wanting to keep this part of your life private I know my family read my blog, so I am mindful about what I write there.

I hope everyone is having a nice weekend. I'm off to the movies tonight. I haven't been for ages, I'm looing forward to it (and yes I will keep away from the Candy bar!).

I had a look at your blog Lila and I can really see a difference! Well done! :)

Lila you are a foxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx! The weight loss is very noticeable and you even look so much younger!!!

Well done lady!

:)

Thanks guys!!
Wow, who cares about looking thinner - I look younger WOOHOO!!!!!!!

you rock lila
i'd love to do a blog but i would talk so much crap i'd probably annoy everyone AND myself
i am going to bookmark it and have a read when jemima has a sleep today

lindor - you are inspirational, i am going to go out of a plane before i am 30, i have big ideas....

oh i am supposed to weigh in....
lets get that over and done with READY

..... damn damn damnh 105.4kg that is my HEAVIEST EVER

now i will firstly 'blame' the humdinger and wedges and sourcream, and then the 2 x maccas yesterday and the tuesday maccas and the wednesday kfc
and then i will BLAME myself for being silly

last night i asked benji to help me get skinny
and he said no worries
no more sweetstuff
no more chocolate
no more lollies
that is the first step in the benji helping kel thing
oh and he said i have to write everything down
so i will do as i am told
and since i have not got into kidzone for jem at the gym today i will walk to racq to buy ekka tickets for wednesday and that will be a fair walk pushing jemima etc

heaviest ever after 3 weeksish at the gym that is hilarious.....

yep lila you are looking FINE FINE FINE!!! :)


Danni i dont tell anyone about my forum... there fore they cant snoop :) lol

vonni i can remember midori.... nice drink.. but cant drink it .... brings me up in hives..lol just as well really..

i did find a preservative free drink called bolt.. i didht get hives but it tasted like childrens cough mixture... lol... so just as well really .. i dont need to drink at all ..

well i had a great weekend.. food and exercise wise.. and even all up saturday.. John had to work so i took the kids to my parents house for lunch .. they made scones with nanny and the hadf them with home made jam.... they were very pleased indeed . then Mum gave them both a present.. Cameron got a train set ( we grabbed at toys are us for $5 bargain)and leah got a little pet shop toy and a glittery jellewry box.. ( that she is using for her little pets... lol).
and yesterday we went to a science expo in the showgrounds then to JOhns folks house ... came home and watched movies.. .. we got the Curious case of benjamin button ... and friday the 13th... .
benjamin button was a great film... we both really enjoyed it.. and john actually stayed awake for both films.... lol ( very unusual for him.. he works so hard the poor bugger ).

John aunt sent us a picture she took of the four of us whenn she was over in aus a few months back.. here it is.. i actually like it.. :) lmao
http://i25.tinypic.com/28m2v49.jpg

oh kel.... you ate a load of crap but i doubt its all fat gain.. alot of that would be water retention from all the salt... ... keep on keeping on... you know you can do it.. im in the same boat as you lets behave today ....

maybe if we take this thing one day at a time.. we can get back on track ?? what do ya think?

Aw that's a really lovely photo Amy :D

And as for you Lila ... what a FOX alright!! You really do look way younger in that second pic. Love the hair colour too :D

I had a lovely long walk on Saturday afternoon, the boy and I went and did a 1 hour 20 minute walk around the hills and boy I can feel it today.

Unfortunately my diet has gone to pot. I just can't seem to keep it together knowing that I'm not going to be able to eat as per usual this week after I get my teeth done!

So tomorrow is the big day. My appointment is at 11am so think of me while I'm getting my teeth pulled out :cry: :eek: :dizzy:

I'll come back soon and let you all know how it went.


:twirly:

Kel it wouldn't matter if you spent four hours a day in the gym - you're not going to lose any weight if you include Maccas and KFC in your diet. They are full of fat, salt and preservatives and an average meal contains almost my whole daily calorie allowance.

In fact it would take about five hours of consistent exercise to burn off ONE of their meals :eek:.

I work in a very physical job, as most of you know, and the calories I burn at work would equal a few hours/day at the gym - plus I am on my feet and walking all day in steel-cap boots. Even with all of that I gain weight if I eat more than 2000 cals/day.

We overestimate the impact of exercise, and underestimate the impact of food on our weight.

In spite of all the good intentions of the past few weeks I haven't been very disciplined or honest with myself. So it all starts today! I have a new goal of losing 8kg by the time my birthday comes around (it is 17 weeks away).

I am writing everything down, and planning what I am going to eat for the week. It's important to me that I get this right, because I refuse to undo all my good work.

Amy that's a great pic of you - and your hubby is hot!

18 weeks and 4 days until Christmas . . . . eek!

Awesome. Christmas = summer and for that, I can't fricken wait!

Amy, thats a lovely photo.
Kel, it's hard keeping the evil fat fairy at bay (thats what I call my cravings & subsequent lack of self control). If I stay away from temptation (Maccas etc) I tend not to indulge.

But having said that......

I was very naughty lasy night, but I'm not going to beat myself too much about it as it was such a nice meal (French restaurant mmmmm). It was the first proper blowout I've had in months (ok I'm making excuses now).

Back on the weightloss wagon I climb.

I just dont wanna be chafey this year! Ok, ok, ohhhhhhhh kay. There is still time left to get off some flab. I think I have been dilly dallying for too long.

I am entering the hardcore zone.

Will report on results.

Slow and steady does not win the race for me - it just messes with my head and makes me feel like an even bigger failure.

Just like doing a specific "diet" plan like WW or Jenny doesnt work for everyone, the easy does it approach just does not work for me. I have through easy does it lead myself into being fat yet again. I dont understand moderation when I am at this point. I need to rip the bandaid off and be hardcore. I know I can do moderation when I am more in control as I have done it before.

So gotsta do what works for me. We ALL have to work off our strengths and what works for us.

I feel relieved and that is a good sign that I am moving in the right direction :)

I also have done some thinking with work and I am over the love/hate thing. I keep expecting people to take an interest and care about being there but they dont. So I will have to baby them and tell them what to do every day. I am not going to keep picking up the slack for . . . well, slackers! I would rather tell them to piss off and take on their work and their pay packet than have them taking the piss.

And no more super late nights. I am too old for this sh.it. I cant physically do it anymore. It makes me snappy, snippy, tired, then I get sick physically then I get mentally distressed and no amount of money is worth this.

So no more of that.

I am my priority now. There is no one else to take care of me if I dont. And I cant be there anyone if I am a mess.

So, I have a goal of where I want to be by Christmas - its not a weight goal - I want to be back in these khaki pants that I wore 2 years ago (last year they were too big this year well lets not discuss that). I will still be fuller figured but I will be much leaner than now.

So thats the plan.

heheeh ani I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW
i was SO not going to woe is me too much about my weight this week
i made all STUPID food decisions (except chicken wrap at maccas on tuesday lunch) (instead of quarter pounder)
everything else was stupid - my trainer thinks it has something to do with some irrational thinking due to stopping meds suddenly
but i am feeling more in control today
and have other plans and thoughts making me think long term and how everything i do counts
and as i always have in the back of my mind - the only person i am cheating is myself

I GOT THE JOB!!!!

Sorry for shouting but I'm really excited!! I start at the end of this month. What a great birthday present!!!

YAY FOR ME

YAY FOR YOU BARBIEGIRL!!!

I hope everyone had a great day. I'm good but I am craving cheese BADLY. So silly. I've already had a piece & I want more - MORE!!!!

MMMMM Cheese!

Congrats Barb!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wonderful news :hug:

Originally Posted by Lila Leeds:
I'm good but I am craving cheese BADLY. So silly. I've already had a piece & I want more - MORE!!!!

I will never and have never given up cheese on any dietary incarnation that I have attempted in my past 25 years.

:D

But moderation is good - so well done Lila sweets!!!

:carrot:

Well done Barb! Hope it all goes well for you! :)

Why do I feel like pizza? Hmmmmm :p

lol Lindor!

That is fabulous Barb well done. :)

umm sorry lindor that was my fault you musta smelt the pizza i made for the kids last night through the forums... lol

i love cheese :) nothing would get me to give it up... lol

.. i had another couple of crappy days ... fighting with hubby getting cranky with the kids ... and got the phonecall from the immunisation clinic .. they needed me to get a referal .. so went to the doctor to discuss it with her and decided to immunise miss moffit while i ws there.. like my doc said either way you know she is going to react why drag her to town to do it..( though i did want a bit of support to get her threw i gave in and agreed with the doctor) both ways i will have to deal with it.. Leah kicked the doctor( in the face :( i feel terrible for the doctor) hid under the chair screamed like a banshy .. then ran out of the doctors office and hid under a chair in the waiting room . .. the screaming continued for about 3 hours as she blew up like a balloon ( arms legs and body but not the face very much ) and had to take her clothes off becuase they got too tight but the phenergan got her swelling down.. Leah got the ice cream treatment before she decided to talk to me again .. she was so angry with me for making her so sick. :(


hubby came home snapped at me about something and i grew three heads and screamed at him till he left ... he was being a complete *** hole and deserved it though .. He expects me to always have everything together. Im supposed to not get frustrated when the kids dont listen after a very emotional and stressful day . its like im not allowed to be stressed.. or upset.. i am suppose to just carry on and cook his ****ing dinner.. and make it god damn perfect every god damn night.. im sick of it.. he is so fussy and ****ing rude.. too boot about my cooking .. **** him.

what am i suppose to do i try so god damn hard to keep her well .. i check everything she eats and keep her away from sick kids ... and yesterday i had to go againest everything i have worked so hard to avoid.. I went to bed alone last night crying at the memory of my daughters face of absolute fear and battrael she had when i found her under the chair of the waiting room.. poor kid .. whio wouldn't be terrified of a needle that makes you so sick..

Amy I feel for you. Have the docs offered to desensatise (sp) her. My husbands daughter has allergies and they gave her a couse of injections, seems to have worked.
You sound like you need some time out. Go stay with your mum and dad for a while and make your unappreciative husband take care of himself for a few days, see how well he does on his on. Sometimes wonderwoman needs a break. You can't be expected to be on top of everything all of the time, sprinkles or no sprinkles!

First of all Barb so many congrats for you. Bet yr really pleased.

AMy I really feel for you. When i was doing my training we had a patient who was 19 and screamed and jumped on her mum s knee and flipped out about getting a needle. Not because it would make her sick but for her fear of them.

Is Leah scared of the needle or knows it makes her sick? If it's the needle has the doctor tried tapping her before they stick it in? its a trick i learnt from the doctor here and u know my kids have never EVER freaked out with him, yet the RN did it once and they did flip. The tapping apparently moves the mind away from the needle sting. I use it for big injections with patients i look after and it seems to work with them.

But if it's cause she gets so sick that she's scared I dont have any advice sry lol. Sickness IS scary when yr big let alone being a little girl. Poor thing give her lots of mummy hugs.

As for your man.... think we've all (or most of us) have been through that crap at some stage. **** its an everyday occurance in my house and i just flip my hair (when i USED to have hair) and ignore it.

I have lost weight not sure exactly sure when or how but last weigh in at Doc i was 78.3 or something and now i am 76... wooohoo :carrot:

Oh God Amy, what a sh*thouse day. I hope things get better.
I put on almost a kilo this week. Poop. It's almost TOM & it's IMPOSSIBLE to diet when hubby is off work - he has taken 2 weeks holidays, we are just spending it round the house & doing day trips, it's lovely, but when we are out & about it's really difficult to stay on plan.
I think I might try for maintaining my weight for the next 2 weeks then back to it with a VENGENCE!

well done vonni :) thats great news.

Leah got off pretty lightly in the end.. she didnt blow up again... so all in all a fairly minor reaction .. Leah was terrified b4 she even got in the door .. and i think its becuase she knows its gonna make her sick.. ..

These forums are pretty funny i didnt write the cherry on top part thats what it changed my swearing too.. lol ...


I dont know about desensitiving barb.. but i would assume that is done with a load of needles and she is just too young for me to drag her through that.. i guess if anything she may out grow her allergies.. .. or become less sensitive with time.. im guessing the affect on her little body of a preservative is far greater then the affect on her adult size .. so its just a waiting game..


Vonni do you mean you put tape where you are going to put the needle?? I dont know if it woulda helped Leah this time.. becuase she was already a mess b4 it happened.. but interesting concept .

Anyway.. My hubby started groveling b4 i even got home last night... I think he realsised he ****ed up big time.. and was an *******..

Congrats on the job Barb, that's great!

Well my toof extractions went well. The drugs they gave me were awesome and I don't remember a thing. Was out of it all of Tuesday while the sedatives wore off, wasn't in much pain at all yesterday but it hit me last night and my face has been aching heaps since then.

The worst thing is that I've used this as an excuse to completely sabotage my weight loss. It's something I've often done in the past, use being unwell as an excuse for eating crap to make myself feel better. Today I had McDonalds for lunch followed by a vanilla custard slice.

Not cool at all and IT STOPS HERE. No more excuses, all I'm doing is putting on the weight that I worked so hard to lose. I'm back on track AS OF NOW.

I have a new niece! Judeline Anne Russo was born at 12.35am weighing 6lb6oz and 45 cm's. They named her after my mum.

Barb that is great and so sweet they named her after your mum .. congrats too you and your family.. i bet she is gorgeous.. :)

Congrats on the new niece Barb, and while i'm talking to you have we missed your birthday or is it at the end of the month?

Amy you tap (as in with yr fingers) the part of the body several times before you dart the needle in, it apparently gears the brain to the tapping feeling so the needle doesnt really register in the brain as a pain. I find it helpful for the IM injections. and have even had them do it to me when i have had mine so i could experience it. and it works.

i have tried to read all i have missed.....
i even tried to post the other day
but bigpond hates my computer and there were issues
today i had "one of those days" but jemima was awesome and i know it could be worse (if i was the blaming type i would blame bigpond for telling me to stay home between 7 and 12 and then not showing up and i had things to do and etc etc) (then all my coke cans fell out of trolley in the carpark)(then jemima dropped her n ew fish twice when we were crossing the road) (then then then ) (luckily i actually thought it was ALL funny)

anyway anyhooooooooo

i have something serious

One thing to remember in life is that we all have choices. Even a descision to do nothing is a choice.

I pulled that from an article i checked a couple of weeks ago and have been thinking about it for ages.

then i go to a friends place - you know the type knows it all so makes you feel like a crap mother and makes you ask yourself the tough questions we all try and avoid.
anyway she just HAPPENED to go and see dr phil last week and he said that oprah invited him to come to her house as she wanted him to tell her friends why they were fat and what they should do etc etc
so he went
and he said
'YOU ARE FAT BECAUSE YOU CHOOSE TO BE"

i am so stupid
i have no medical reason for my weight gain
i am just continually choosing to be fat

(most people would probably think "oh i choose to be skinny" and i think that is the idea but not me)

it has clicked
at least for this week but i dont see what is going to change

I CHOOSE NOT TO BE FAT

basically everytime i open my mouth it is MY choice, what i buy is MY choice, i like to think of myself as slightly clever.... so why am i being so stupid making crap decisions

i dont want to be fat
so i am not going to be


barb - too cool you got the job and so nice your neice is named after your mum... lucky she has such a pretty name!

amy - dont you love it when your partner knows they stuffed up........ and i hope leah gets over her needle thing, my granddad is 70odd and still afraid of them and he is a tough used to be a cop, used to run a bar, used to be a farmer type..... whereas jemima loves watching me get blood tests and loves watching miami ink with the tattoo needles and we watch all saints together almost every day....

julia - i dont envy you with the toof extraction i am taking jemima for the first time to the dentist on monday - i think it will go fine....

You are an amazing mother Kel and an amazing woman. This is a great post.

We are the ones in the drivers seat! We make the decisions. So we just have to make different ones. I know we can all do it. I even believe I can do it. Finally I feel like I am ok :) taken bloody ages!

How the **** did I forget that I went from 122 to 72 in a year!

That was not a fluke. I chose every day to live my life rather than eat.

Love to all.

Let's be good to ourselves today.

weigh in day 106.5... lol.. so still 100 grams up on a couple of weeks ago... lol.. im just gonna blame tom and go on my merry way...


Kel very good post.. you are right... we choose what to do and what not to do..

Danni... fine you went from that to that in a year but becuase you did it the crash diet way your body then gained back as quickly as it could when you got back to normal... that is how you can forget it..it didnt work in the long term just the short term.. :) be kind to your self and give your body a break.. let it go the slow and longterm rather then the quick and short term.. the results will speak for themselves..

Vonni my birthday was Wednesday, had a lovely day, got heaps of pressies and the day off from motherly duties! Hubby took me out for lunch, we had Indian, yum!

Kel, well said. Your so right.

I remember when I was working, before babies, thinking to myself "when I have more time for myself I'll do something about my weight." Now I'm going back to work after 11 years and I'm still a fatty! Yes I have lost heaps over that time, but I've gained it all back and then some. So now I'm looking forward to being at work again and hoping that I'll make better choices and finally do whats good for me.

I weighed in today and have gained 1.1kg this week. I over indulged Wednesday so this doesn't come as a surprise!