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15 minute run, Day 3, 2 pauses allowed
20 min additional exercise, start over 2 pauses allowed No beer, Start over, 2 pauses allowed Apple a day, Day 1, 2 pauses allowed Well, we went out for dinner and well..... I've also fallen into the habit of getting a short run in but forgetting to do the extra 15 or 20 min of exercise. If I go to the gym, no problem. I need to walk the dogs more! Speaking of dogs, Thanks for the well wishes about my old guy. I don't think he will be around much longer. Since the last 2 days have seen some sun, he drags himself out of the garage to lie in a sunny spot and drags himself back in. I haven't actually seen him move, so I don't know if he's walking or dragging. He's a mess and I'm constantly washing blankets. I have to go clean him up a bit right now. |
Well, it must be a hormonal blip, b/c I am struggling here with binges the last 3 days. Mostly sugar again, all of a sudden. But, carbs, salt, alcohol even, just feeling like I'm careening out of control around some unexpected bends in the road I've just encountered. And I can't point to any specific event that's happened recently. It's as if I had a cap firmly (I thought) on a very full bottle but the contents were churning and bubbling just under the surface, and then the cap blew off and an unexpected eruption of said contents is now occurring.
I am once again at the start of today striving to clean up the mess and gain control again. Yesterday's excesses are staring at me from the top of the dining room table, the result of my semi-intoxicated excursion into a little store next to the place we went last night when I felt the HUGE need to find something sweet to cap off the evening. I literally could not deny myself, it was like it was a matter of life or death, I think I may have even thought I was missing some critical food nutrient, and I had to have it now or I may literally die! Which was utterly ridiculous, of course, b/c I'd already had this "critical food nutrient" (i.e., sugar, and chocolate) 3-4 times in the past 96 hours! Now, I am repentant, and trying to get off this runaway train. As well as trying to figure out how to avoid this in the future, (like, tonight, or tomorrow......) I will attempt to get out and walk today at least. Just not feeling the gym lately. I did go on Wednesday, and felt better about life in general afterwards, but it was a real struggle to make myself go and get through it--strangely didn't have the usual enjoyment in being there and working out until after I'd finished. Even the tunes on my IPod didn't really help. Maybe it was the several days of rain and clouds we've had here, maybe it's the busy-ness of my work lately (although I am relieved I'm bringing in more money, but I am really working for it!), maybe it's.....oh I don't really know. More rain starting again tomorrow, to last for at least 3 days, so I'd better try and take advantage of this day to get outside. I hope you guys are doing better than me--sounds like we all are still struggling a bit here. Just the February blahs, maybe. If I am successful today, I'll be back to re-start my challenges (again!) :crossed: |
15 minute run, Day 5, 2 pauses allowed
20 min additional exercise, start over 2 pauses allowed No beer, Day 1, 2 pauses allowed Apple a day, start over, 2 pauses allowed Sounds like SOMETHING is going on. Maybe it's something to do with the lunar cycle, I don't know. I've had a few bad days too. I have a big volunteer event that I'm helping with next week and the stress is building. So that's my excuse. Plus the feeling of losing control of the household (think mess) and the sick dog (doing better but I still think his days are numbered) I hope to pull through the fog soon. The run is my one bright spot, it is SOOO relaxing to get away from everything for 15 minutes ahhhh. Red? |
surveying the wasteland...
Quick check here. Not doing too good myself. Everything is just too much and then with the cold on top of that. February always finds me exhausted and in the dumps. I too am trying to salvage myself from the ruins. Will figure out where I stand on the challenges and what new ones I'm going to be making soon. Gotta run. Take care all! :wave: |
OK, Sunday here. Once again I will try to have a "good" day. Yesterday, not so much. Today, going to my swim class in a few and hopefully that will put me in a good frame of mind for the rest of the day. If so, I will try to effect a "re-start", again! We had friends over last night so of course we had alcohol and snacks and such, so I am discounting yesterday.
Today the clouds are back, light drizzle-y rain, and just blah. But, I am not going to let the weather be my excuse, it's just me, doing what I do, sometimes up, sometimes down........ When is summer coming again? |
pushing on...
I am still not doing well, though I will say that I still am pushing on, I am still not dead yet.
I have been slack on two of the challenges and instead of worrying about pauses I am going to start some new ones. The only one I will continue is the apple a day because I like it. It's easy to do and yet still a challenge. I have to make a conscious effort to buy the apple and eat it, but it's something I actually enjoy ONCE I do it. I only had one pause day, where I didn't eat it all day then had a night out. Though I tried to salvage the day by cutting one up and actually taking it with me. What did I think, I would eat it in the bar? Maybe, or at least afterward. But, as it turned out I was out way too late. So, that was a non-day. That was Friday. Saturday and Sunday were good. So, that puts me at: Day 12 completed. Now it's Monday, so this is Day 13 and I have them at work so I'll be OK this week...I should be. I've learned to get the apple in early in the day for one thing. mod, Apple, gosh, it sounds like we're all having a rough time. At least the three of us are hanging in there somehow. We're not packing on the pounds, are we? It sounds like no. The times I don't even post a thing are usually the times I am sticking my head in the sand for days on end and, naturally, just not looking at what I'm doing, or not admitting it. And naturally, it's during those times that I gain a lot of weight and have to start all over. So, we're still in the game, even though we may just be going through the motions. It's still better than being totally sidelined, right? :strong: |
another apple in the tummy...
Day 13 done on the apple challenge.
And the rest of the day was good! Hurrah! :cp: |
You are correct, Red, we are not just ignoring everything and letting the pounds pack back on. But, we are struggling. I am not in "I don't care" mode yet, but I am in a bit of "helpless" mode--no Willpower at all!!
Anyway, starting today, I feel better. Yesterday, ate the last of my candy in the AM, had something bad at lunch again too. But today, it's amazing how all of a sudden I feel better, mentally, and maybe it's just the fact I cannot have anything in the house that's bad. Nothing at all, but now that it's all gone, I feel like I can make it through the day without any problems. Or maybe my hormones have just cycled back to "normal" again! I did have a ton of veggies yesterday for dinner, made some new dish which started out Korean, but was a bit of an ad lib with what I had on hand. Anyway, DH liked it, that's all that matters, and it was healthy and had tons of veggies in it! I am going to go swim tonight, and hope to make it to the gym the rest of the week. The scale, well, it isn't my friend, but I'm not totally ready to throw it out the window yet. Lots of water to help with the flush and I should be "back" soon, I hope! New challenges have to re-include the water--lost that somewhere along the way. Apple a day--Day 1 64 oz. or more H2O--Day 1 A little exercise every day, even if just 15 minutes--Day 1 More veggies/salads--Day 1 Cut way down on bread/pasta/rice--no more than 2 servings/day--Day 1 OK, let me get back on track with those..... Red--I was watching Anthony Bourdain recently (you may not know who that is, but he is a food/travel personality on TV) he was in Tokyo, and he went to some alley-type place (or maybe just a little street) where there are a lot of very tiny little "bars" where people go after work or maybe even "after hours" to drink, places that only hold like 8 or 9 people crammed in tight quarters. Is that where you go when you go out with friends? I can't remember the name of the "district". His whole show on Tokyo was very interesting, (all of his shows are) and made me think of you in many of those places.....:) |
clear on another day...
Day 14 done on apple challenge.
I know an apple challenge doesn't sound like much but it's the only thing I am calling a challenge. I am doing other things, like not eating sugar and staying out of the bar and keeping my calories down and exercising. The apple challenge is like my flag bearer. It helps keep me in line, because if I were pigging out etc., I wouldn't be eating apples. In fact, I'd be doing well if I even looked at an apple, let alone any sort of fresh vegetables etc. For the past two days too I've had big salads as my main meal. And that is cool. :yes: ************** mod -- I find it amazing that you get your swimming in. To me, who hates swimming because I'm no good at it, if I were able to drag my sorry arse to the pool to swim it would be a major accomplishment. Keep it up! Glad to hear you feel better. It really irritates me that our resolve and clearheadeness is so tied up with hormones, over which we have such little control. Well, maybe we do, but they're still going to knock us around. The place you saw on TV may indeed be one of the places I used to go a lot last year and still go occasionally. It's not just one little street though, it's many. There are many areas in Tokyo where there is a street of such bars, well, anywhere in Japan really. But it probably was the area known as Golden Gai (pronounced "guy" and means "district or "area" though often misunderstood by foreigners who think it has something to do with the gay area... :lol3: ) in an area called Shinjuku in Tokyo. Shinjuku is one of the many places, but probably the biggest in Tokyo, that is huge and NEVER sleeps. I almost never go to Golden Gai with other people, only alone, which is part of the reason I go till morning. Drinking with coworkers near work and then still wanting to keep on drinking even though I'm alone, which also means I'm not too sober any longer... :^: . If I go to these places there are tons of people I know. Very bad habit but it served its purpose, which was no less than to keep me sane last year. |
two weeks solid!
Cool on Day 15! :cp: Hard to think I've had an apple every single day (except one) for two whole weeks. How it adds up. And, I even bought a big apple to cut up and take with me riding tomorrow. When I go in to work on my late days, I risk not getting to the apple in time. :dance: |
home stretch!
Well, I made it through Day 16. :bravo: I'm having some good days. Wish I could bottle these. Heh, where is everyone? How come every time I start doing well, everyone disappears? :cry:
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another apple in the tummy...
Well, another day is finished successfully. and it was a GOOD one, in all ways, really good. :encore:
Day 18 on apple challenge notched! Apple, mod, anyone else, where are you all??? :dunno: |
Wow, wtg Red! You are doing great! I am just busy this week, and can't seem to get on here as much (probably good for my rear, this not being able to sit on my computer so much, lol!) I have the fever to be out and working on my garden and planning/planting, etc. Also started again on organinizing some stuff in the house. Lots of energy again!
Eating much better--turns out I had pre-TOM so that was making me eat sugar like crazy for a week or so. I am so irregular and skipping often now that I don't ever know if what I am experiencing is indeed hormonally influenced or what, but it truly was--whew! I really do usually have better will-power than I'd shown last week! Red--yup--that sounds like the district or area he was in. I am so hoping to go there one day in a 3-4 years. Never been to any asian country yet....... Well, off to go do stuff with dh today--will check back in tomorrow. So sorry I seem to get so busy during the work-week, will try to be better this upcoming week..... |
only a couple more to go....
Through another day. The apple was eaten walking to the train from the stable. I had cut it up and packed it to take with me. I almost had a scare thinking I had forgotten it later in the day, but nope! Even got some apples from the landlady, who had them sent to her from her sister in Nagano, heart of apple country! (other than Aomori)
Day 19 done on apple challenge. ************** mod -- At last!! Some life around here. It was SO lonely for the past several days. I sure wish you could pop in, even if it's just to post your days. I was about to give up coming in here myself. The sugar cravings are awful, aren't they? There was a time when I didn't get them, or I was able to ignore them. But recently, even if I've been off sugar, I get them. I wonder what I'm doing differently or is it just less of a resolve to stay off sugar. I think it's the latter. Oh, and I remember I was nearly off caffeine before too. Maybe that's the difference. Hope you get to travel soon. What country would you want to go to? I haven't traveled extensively in Asia but have popped in to some. Japan is nice, but expensive and difficult language-wise, but I like it and it's very safe and you don't have to worry about getting ripped off. |
almost finished!
Day 20 completed!!
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