hsmomx2 - thanks. I can't set goals anymore. I would like like 150. But I doubt it. I haven't really lost any weight in two years (only really gained), so I am trying not to set any more goals for disappointment. I would like to just be less. I am just trying to eat good and not worry about losing anything, though it is hard to not think about it :/ I do have a doctor's appointment for tomorrow to talk about my birth control and my struggles with losing weight and gaining it so easily. I doubt he will have any answers, but just to talk to a doctor might help me to feel better. I know one of my problems is weekends, I have a hard time staying on track... but I don't think that should make me gain weight when the rest of the week are perfect.

Unfortunately the family problems will not go away and I am just going to have to deal with them... or continue to try and ignore them. At least when I got the call this weekend I ate some pizza but would have otherwise. Earlier this year when the problems were really bad, like every other week I was a mess and my eating would just completely go down the drain for like a week. But now I guess I am just immune to them, LOL.

It's not that big of a deal, but I just wonder what it really does to me inside? like I hold it all in and don't really talk to anyone about it and wonder if it causing problems and I don't even know about it. I don't think it is effecting my weight too much anymore, but still - I am sure it causes some stress.

I am really not as depressed as this post sounds, in fact I feel pretty good. Just frustrated with what is going on... wish I could post about it, would probably feel better - but I don't feel comfortable posting all my family problems on the internet for strangers to read.

Wow, so many posts! I'm impressed! I don't really have time to do a full post. Just wanted to let you all know I am HOME from my last trip to Seattle - kind of sad to leave.. but soooo tired!! My brother's movers came at 8am, so I was up at 7:30 to shower and get my stuff out of the apt before they packed it! I will be back later.. or tomorrow.. and will reply!

-Aimee

shari - that sucks about the job. But I do know jobs require you to have a valid license in the state you are currently residing in. I think the law says you have 30 days to change it. I remember when I had just moved to GA from CA, all the jobs I applied for stated that I needed a valid GA license. So I got that changed ASAP. That could have been the reason why they told you no.

aimee - sorry if you've said it already, but why is this your last trip to seattle??

courtnie - that sucks about your family. family does equal stress so that could be why you haven't been losing. But you most definitely cannot give up. You just have to keep with it. Dont set goals, just concentrate on eating right and moving more until it becomes second nature to you. And I bet when you least expect it, the scale and the inches will start flying off. Why not keeping a journal when you're feeling stressed? Since you say you hold stuff in too much. I know when I'm feeling like that I write it all down and it makes me feel a bit better.

hsmomx2 - how's it going with your points? lol I've gotten way better at tennis. I play with my bf and he taught me a lot. I'm going to be the next Jancovic!!! lol But yea it's fun and it keeps me moving. But I haven't gotten to play these last days because the weather has been gross. I'm sure you've seen it. Darn rain!! I hate rainy days. Especially when I'm itching to go out on the courts.

so I've been really bad with eating and the whole working out thing. Haven't made much of an effort. But I'm still going to keep on fighting the good fight. It ain't over til it's over, ya know? Since we moved I can't find my stinking SI6 dvds. But that's still no excuse for not getting physical. I have just been really lazy. I was planning on going to LA for Halloween since my aunt is throwing a halloween party and since I love Halloween, I wanted to go over and be with my family. WE'll see if it happens though. I don't have money but get this, my little sister said she'll buy my ticket. How sad is that? My 16 yr old sis who works at mcdonalds buying me a plane ticket? LOL whatever...it's not set it stone yet, but I do hope it happens.

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Shari- What a bummer about the job. Hopefully something else will come along better.

Courtnie- I ditto Ro's suggestion of a journal to get it all out. I've done it a few times when I just felt nothing would ever go right. Hang in there! Vent when you need to, we're here for you.

Ro- I've only used about 10 out of my 27 points today. The a/c wasn't working well so I didn't really care for coffee to much. I've surely been chugging enough water. Tomorrow is weigh in for me. I hope its good this time around. We'll see. That would be great to go visit and spend time with your family. I bet you miss them alot.

Well, dh is home and going to work on fixing the a/c. Yay! Gotta to run for now. I hope to have time to check back in tonight after church.

Well, it's a good thing I had alot of points left for today. Dh chose to eat at Moe's tonight. I'm sure that's the most points I've ate in a meal this week and the night before weigh in. At least I did eat the nachos covered in cheese even though I wanted it.

Shari - sorry to hear about the job, hopefully something better comes along! Yes, get a roommate, and get a computer!

Rosario - my brother is moving tomorrow to San Francisco, so no more weekend trips to Seattle.. mostly because I don't wanna pay 200 bucks for a hotel! I am going to San Fran in October, I need to do that this week actually! Your sister's income is probably 100% disposable, so if she wants to pay for your ticket, I totally say go for it! We are going to a theme party, they are kind of fun... I totally need ideas since it's an 80's theme, got any?

hsmom - GL on your WI! a/c? What a concept, it's quite cold here... I'm aching for some hot weather so I can go to the beach one last time before the winter rains start!

Courtnie - sorry to hear about the family stuff, if you need to talk, find me on msn! Writing definitely is a good idea, helps to get it out without having to tell everyone whats going on.

So I'm SUPER discouraged about my weight gain.. err.. loss? I'm gaining like NOTHING else, so so frustrating :( I'm really starting to see that I've got to cut out the bread/rice, and cut the sugar out. So I've been looking into south beach again, it really has worked for me.. but I've often thought that I should be able to lose the weight with eating regular foods, just less of them. Yup, not true for me. So I'm frustrated, and also depressed that I have to be so strict with my diet.. the other option is to keep getting fatter, and that makes me want to cry. Thats whats going on for me the last 2 days.. tonight I made this thing called taco bake, that should get me through the next couple of days!

-Aimee

Shari- The next job offer maybe better for you anyway. It's great that dude is going to help you out.

Aimee - I chose to stick to ww's because I know it works if I follow it. So why try something different if you know it works. Ykwim. I'm sorry to here your so down. Gee, I wouldn't be happy with cold weather coming on so early. No wonder why I live in the south. Find a diet that works for you and just stay with it. Your efforts will pay off in the long run. You can do this.

Drum roll please: I lost 3.8# this last week! I guess I show the 3# gain last week how I felt. Well, dh is home so I need to run for now. I hope everyone has had a great day so far.

Well, I thought I would be able to post more, but we're off to the park. The kids are going to ride their scooters around the track while I walk. Hopefully, I'll be able to jog some of it even thought I'm already tired and it's only 7:38. I'll check back in later.

Ro & Shari- Are you already working out for the tbl challenge?

Courtnie- I hope your less stressed today.

Aimee- Did you decide about the sbd? You can get thur this little rut. I know how frustrating it can be.

hsmom - congrats on the WI!! Thats awesome, you must be happy :) I started eating like I'm on South Beach, I think I need to come to some realization that I can't be like everyone else.. and that in order to lose this weight I will have to cut out bread/rice/pasta/sugar.. it'll be hard. But it will be worth it. I am a total sugar addict, but I can be something different. I just need to accept what is, and realize I can't change how my body reacts to sugar and wheat products. So thats what I am up against, hard one! The weather here is hard, fortunately it's been sunny the last couple of weeks, I am hoping it stays like this! Josh and I might go to the beach tomorrow... fingers crossed for some hot weather! :)

Today was good, no sugar! I ate good, it was hard, but I did it! No working out, but I will get that started tomorrow. And hopefully these pounds will melt right off - because the scale is nearly at the highest its EVER been! Yikes! As you can see in my ticker I've weighed, and had gained 4 pounds.. can't wait to see them gone! I am now off to bed.. goodnight!!

-Aimee

Ro - thanks. My biggest beef with a journal is that it takes time to write! haha I did used to keep an online blog but deleted it when I realized I would horrified if my family found it. I agree with Aimee - you sister's income is 100% disposable! I had more money when I was making less, but now I spend more money on food and bills, lol.

Shari - sorry to hear about the job.

Aimee - it's only been 2 days! Give it a chance!

hsmomx2 - congrats on the loss! yay!!!!

Tonight we are ordering pizza! blah and getting ready for our Garage Sale tomorrow! I am going to get up early and make a low fat lemon blueberry or raspberry loaf so hopefully if my mom brings donuts over I can resist with my tasty fresh loaf haha. We hope to sell a lot of stuff so I can have my garage back and get the junk out of the inside of my house. My spare bedrooms are full of stuff that one would normally store in a garage, but my garage has been STUFFED full of Grandma's stuff for the past year. SO we hope to sell that stuff - and some of my stuff - make some money and then turn the garage into a place where I can exercise without bothering the tenets in the basement. I am looking forward to setting that up. THe garage is kinda ugly but hopefully I can make it look nice over time.

So I went to the doctor on Tuesday and he was totally useless. Gave me a stupid diet and wouldn't talk to be about my birth control concerns. (there is a post in support about it) So I am not taking birth control for a little while. That way I can tell him there is a problem with it if there is. Yesterday I was supposed to start taking it again and I didnt! I am so nervous and scared but feel good about it at the same time.

Anyway TGIF everyone.

Today is day 2! I woke up with a headache, I'm totally not shocked about that though, all this lack of sugar definitely is getting to me. Soon my body will adjust and I'll be able to function normally.. lol. It's also possible that I'm coming to accept my fate of no more sugar/wheat.

Courtnie - I always have issues with doctors, they never really answer what I want.. especially with weight loss! Hopefully all works out will the pill, or rather without the pill! Make sure you are protected, although a little courtnie running around could be cute ;)

Shari - that is silly, a sore back isn't fun! I might need to luck with SBD! I am not fully following it - or I might be... but I haven't gone over phase 1, so I could be doing a variation of it.

I am off work today, and it's super sunny out :) Josh and I are going to spend some time together - he's going out tomorrow night without me, so yah. I just found out today that it's a guys night out, no girls allowed! Damn boys! I was kind of looking forward to a night out with some drinking and dancing! I need a GIRLS night, I just need to meet some girls.. lol. One of my good friends is gone for 6 weeks, she's the one I usually go out with too. Anyways, thats my vent for the day!

-Aimee

Aimee- I hope your body is able to adjust quickly to the sbd. You are a very strong gal ditching sugary foods. Well, with Josh at the boys night why not go shopping or call someone you haven't chatted with in ages. I love getting caught up on my friends lives. Since usually I don't have lots of spare time to just sit and chat.

Shari- I hope your back getting to feeling better soon. I feel almost new since I went to the chiro this morning.

Courtnie- Good luck with your sale tommorrow! I worry about family finding me posting online too. I just decided that me getting healthy is more important than worring about them. They can already see how fat I am. My family and irl friends doesn't know I'm doing wwers. I hope going off the pill helps you.

Thanks for the congrats. I hope this week is just as good. I went out to eat at a buffet for lunch. I got one meal plate not full with 3 different vegetables on it. I got a smaller plate 1/2 full of fruit. After doing so good with that then I get a slice of pecan pie with cool whip on it and almost eat the whole slice. Oh, well at least I mostly controled my eating there. I did alot better than I would of a year ago. I've just got to be careful with what I eat tonight. I hope everyone has a great weekend.

hsmomx2-Congrats on your WI!!! way to go on your eating. I wish I had that much self-control. Especially at a buffet. But you seem to have a good grasp on things so I'm sure you'll do good the rest of the day. Btw - have you been hearing that gas will be going up to 5 bucks tomorrow here in ATL? I'm scared about that. Money's tight as it is. I really don't want to have to be worrying about having gas to get to work :(.

aimee - do you feel good inside? I mean without all that sugar, you must feel somewhat great, right? I'd so like to try SB, but the withdrawal part is kind of scary to me. I'd probably go on a crazy binge if I was restricting certain foods. Maybe later on when I'm way better at the eating part I can try something that disciplined. Girls nights are fun!! I so need one. But I only like them with my friends back in CA. I don't have any friends here :(.

courtnie - ditto on being careful without the bc. I wish I was more careful. I'm not on any right now and i crap bricks everytime I'm supposed to start and I haven't (like right now!!) :stress: thats the last thing I need right now. Did you talk to your gyno or your regular practitioner? What a butthead if he didn't want to discuss your concerns. maybe its time to find a new doctor. good luck at your garage sale. Hopefully you make some major bucks so you can buy yourself something nice.

shari - stay positive about the job. Everything happens for a reason. You didn't get this one, so theres something bigger and better waiting out there for you. sorry about your back. Back pain from sleeping uncomfortably is a big PITA (i love this acronym!! lol) hope it feels better!!

Ok, I swear, swear that tomorrow I'm starting to get my crap together. I swear guys. If I come back here and say I haven't been doing good, please chastise the crap out of me. I'm spoiled so all I really need is someone to put me in my place. I have no plans for this weekend so I just really want to get outside and be active. Like play tennis and maybe wash the cars and do my workout dvd. Something!! Just as long as I'm not sitting down on my butt all day. Gosh, I hope I can do it!!

Hopefully I have some good news to report back to you guys tomorrow.

Have a great night everybody! :wave:

Rosario - I'm not at the point where I feel good yet.. mostly I just feel like crap! I have this headache that won't quit, sorta headache, I feel like my head is in a fog, and sometimes I get light headed, but so far this is only in my head, so it's doable. I've definitely experienced worse headaches, so I feel lucky at this point. I will start to feel good soon though! And it is worth it, especially if you are as addicted to sugar as I am.. I just feel... free almost. Also I have to admit every time I get on the scale its gone down - which is also good motivation. I don't really have any friends where I live either, it's SO hard to meet people.. most people I meet are really nice, but they already have their group of friends. So I definitely hear you on that - at least you have friends in CA!

So I made it through yesterday, that headache is definitely bothering me. And so far nothing will take it away, the only time I got a little relief was when I went for a walk - go figure! Hopefully today it'll subside, since I have to work a full day. I am NOT going out tonight, just gonna come home, maybe nap, watch a movie, something low key. My body needs to heal and detox itself.. and now I'm off to shower! Have a good one ladies!!

-Aimee

The headache passed! So the day went well! I also got on the scale, and it was down another pound, yay! I weigh in tomorrow, so hopefully that will hold steady! I'm also getting used to the idea that I can't have sugar or wheat for the next 50 weeks.. not fully there yet. Got any ideas on how I can accept this??

-Aimee

Day 4 went well! Today is day 5.. and I will be weighing in soon. I will be back last to post how it went!

-Aimee

So I am down to 264 this week! yay! I had been stuck at 265 for a while, so its good to see something below 265! I'm down 5 pounds.

Not alot of time to check in, I hope everyone is having a great weekend.

Aimee- I'm glad your headache when away. I know you're excited about weigh in today. I hope it goes great.

Ro- I've heard of a few places over $5 a gallon. It's crazy. Dh's work was already going slow. It this keeps up it would be cheaper for him to take the week off even thought he's out of vacation time. That's sad.

Shari- Yay, I guess we were posting at the same time. I was wondering what team/s we were on. Now, we've got to rock this challenge.

Shari - thanks! It was hard hard work, and the with drawl was intense! But it's worth it if I get even just 1 pound closer to goal, I just happened to get lucky and lose 5 pounds!

hsmom - I am feeling almost normal now, a slight head fog thing going on, but thats totally doable since the headache is GONE! I can agree with the gas thing, we are paying 5.67/gallon these days. It's painful to fill up, especially since I have to drive to work. We've been paying this for a while though, so we're starting to get used to it. When we first got our car it was 40 bucks, these days its more like 55. yuck!

Well I am off to grocery shop and hopefully catch some sun! Have a good day ladies!!

-Aimee

Alright - so I'm taking these fibre pills.. omg! Tonight my stomach is ACHING from it! But otherwise I made it through day 5 just fine! I even exercised today, I gotta get my stuff together and get back to doing weights.. this week definitely.

-Aimee

WTG Aimee!!

You're doing great Aimee!

I made it thru today with no huge slip ups!! This is pretty amazing because I had the worst day at work.. its possible it could go down in history! I had a meeting with my cosmetics manager and my store manager to discuss some issues I had with her... and then I just got slammed. Turns out the cosmetics manager went to my store manager and said I was the worst assistant she's ever had. Yup, thats right... apparently I am pretty darn horrible at my job in her eyes. Thats not all, apparently some of the girls don't think I work very hard, and to continue on with the blows to my ego? She can't trust me to finish anything I start - and that I never finish anything ever. Pretty harsh words, especially since NONE OF THEM WERE SAID TO ME BEFORE TODAY. Thats annoying - like if she has an issue why tell everyone BUT me?? I wish this were it, but it's really not.. she also told the district manager almost all of this information as well. So, I was feeling pretty crappy, and at the end of it all? She insisted that we hug... it's like, yah sure punch me, and then tell me you love me.

The good news is after all of that? I didn't overindulge in anything, I came home, talked on the phone for hours, and then made a chicken breast, broccoli and corn! Go me! I'm still feeling pretty low, and I will have a chat with the store manager tomorrow.. since it's very clear I cannot trust my cosmetics manager at all.

Enough of me... hows everyone doing??

-Aimee

Aimee - that is horrible! Is this someone you work closely with? I dunno if I could work with someone after all that! I mean you can't fix what your doing wrong so if she doesn't tell you... how can you change it? I mean if any of that is even true! Maybe she is worried you are going to take over her position and she is trying to make you sound bad? WTF on staying on plan... yesterday was HORRIBLE for me, the weekend was okay - better then yesterday at least, haha.

So weekend went pretty good - garage sale went well, we made some money but still have a few things I am trying to sell in the classifieds. Sunday we did a lot of cleaning and cleared out a lot of stuff now that we have our garage back. We also set up our new tv room in the garage! haha

Yesterday, out of nowhere - I got a second job! haha It is only two days a week min. wage, but it should be pretty good for a second part time job. The place is really slow so I can bring in my laptop, watch movies or whatever as long as what I need to do gets done and I serve the customers when they come in. Should be not bad! On plus is Wednesday I will be gone 7:30-9:30 so hopefully being busy all the time I can stay on track! Sundays same deal, I will work 10:30-5:30 so working on day should help me to stay away from the junk food... no food court in this mall either and it's close to home, very close! I start tomorrow, eeeks.

Aimee ~ Ahhh, what a *****! I hope the store manager doesn't believe them and your job is safe. WTG on the self control! I probably would have ate the whole house!

Courtnie ~ Congrats on the second job!

So tomorrow I'm off from both jobs! :woo: And I managed not to stuff my face at valero this morning. My manager, who always goes to get something to eat in the morning and buys us stuff, went to MickeyDs today. She asked me if I wanted a biscuit and hashbrown and I told her to bring me a parfait instead. She looked at me like I was nuts but brought it and I enjoyed! Now I did eat some roast beef at the VA but hey one step right?

I am soooooooo tired. I just wanted to report that work went alright today, talked to the store manager and she is believing me! And my cosmetics manager? She's saying that she never said that, and is basically backtracking on everything she said. I also stayed on plan 100%! Day 8! must sleep..

-Aimee

aimee - you're on the 8th day already?!?! way to go girlie!! what a very immature manager you have. to go complain about you to her manager before speaking to you first?? looks like someone has a problem with you on a personal level, not a professional one. but I'm glad your store manager is backing you up on this one. btw - way to go on your WI!

shari - way to go on being good!! those parfaits are yummy!! hope you enjoyed your day off. p.s. I haven't checked out the BL threads yet!! oops! better go post something and soon!

courtnie - lucky!! that's awesome about that extra job. i wish something like that would fall into my lap. that extra money will probably be very nice for you.

hsmomx2 - how are ya doing?

well sorry I haven't been posting. but something came up that I'm really stressing about. And I don't want to talk about it until I know for sure. But I've decided that no matter what the outcome I shouldn't let it get in the way of me eating right and moving more. the only good thing that I've been doing is I havent been drinking soda like I used to. I was probably drinking maybe 2-3 cans of coke a day!! wow, that's a lot. but yesterday was the first time I had a can in a while. So kudos to me for that. But now I feel sheepish because of that last post that I had made about swearing to move more. Oh well :shrug: hopefully you guys just ignore that one :) I guess the thing is to just keep trying.

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Rosario - the key thing is to have this always in your mind, don't feel guilty for not getting 100% on a plan. Those small changes can add up to some small losses, which can add up to a big loss! I think also it's important not to set yourself up for failure, so if you want to get moving more? Start with 15 minutes a day, thats originally what I was doing, and it really worked for me. I hope the outcome is what you are hoping for! My cosmetics manager is a coward, so she can talk big to others, but not to me. I think she likes me as a person, just not as her assistant. She's messed up, some people at work call her Hitler.. she's not very well liked.

Shari - good job with staying away from the McD's bad foods, I actually quite enjoy the parfait myself! Hope you are enjoying today off from both jobs :)

Courtnie - How'd you do yesterday?

Well, start of day 9! I am feeling like I could do this for a long time, just 49 weeks to go.. lol.. so I kind of have to! I am still getting some headaches here and there, not too sure if its related to the lack of sugar, or other things going on. But I just can't handle headaches, they drive me insane!! I am off to work, and then 2 days off :) Have a good day girls!

-Aimee

Courtnie ~ I'm happy things went well with the store manager!

Ro ~ Good job with limiting the sodas. I haven't had any for a couple of days.

I have the sniffles and a headache. Benadryl is my friend today.

Another day! I can't believe all these days are flying by, my biggest fear will be when I am confronted with social situations. For now I've been in control of every meal, which makes things easier. I hope to have the strength to deal with all situations and remain focused on the goal. How do you all deal with those outside factors? I definitely need advice on this portion of things!!

-Aimee

Aimee ~ Learn to say no, and mean it! Be firm.

shari - hope you're feeling better today!

aimee - you're doing so good. the only way I would deal with outside situations and staying on plan while I'm going out is to plan, plan, plan, And the thing is to actually follow through with that plan. If you need to, allow yourself something you wouldn't normally eat/drink. But just remember if you planned to have only one, then one is all you'll have. It's so hard when you see everyone else grubbing on delicious high cal food or drinks, but that's only temporary. The feeling afterward is way better. That feeling of knowing you overcame one of your biggest obstacles. Plus, knowing your working towards a smaller waistline or a lower number on the scale isn't a bad thing either.

so I am so freaking relieved. okay, the thing I was stressing about was I thought I was pregnant!! OMFG!! Imagine that. My period was almost 7 days late. I am NEVER that late. So I was crapping bricks like you wouldn't believe. So i took 2 tests and they both came out negative. BUt I was left wondering where the heck my friend was. He finally showed up last night. woohoo!! You have no idea how good I feel. But I really messed up while I was stressing out by eating lots of fast food. The scale was up to 252.4 this morning!! Yikes!! Instead of going down, I'm going up. Definitely not the direction I wanna be going. So gotta come up wiht a gameplan. This weekend. Eat less, move more is my number 1 priority right now. Hopefully I'm good this weekend. WIsh me luck!

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Shari - I have been taking a different approach, which makes it easier to say no. I am telling people I have an allergy to wheat, or sometimes a sensitivity to sugar... depends! heh.. it works though! Keeps people off my back, and it's not entirely a lie, I do have sensitivity to both.

Rosario - I had a feeling that you were worried about a pregnancy, you kinda gave it away! Glad it turned out how you wanted! Being overweight and being preggo can't be fun, I'd definitely want to be thin before I considered it. My neighbour has been preggo 3 times while over weight, and she always has to worry about gestational diabetes, can't work out, has to change her diet, and has to go to the doctor quite a few times. None of this sounds fun to me.. plus I'd want to show off the preggo belly! Thanks for the advice, the planning thing is definitely a good one, I honestly was so worried I never remembered the sane options! I just figured that I'd HAVE to go off plan, but that doesn't have to be like that. Josh and I have been invited to his friends place for lasagna & garlic bread!! Like could there BE anything worse for me??

I weighed in today, down to 261! Down 3 pounds, yay! I am happy with this, not too sure why I weighed today instead of Sunday, not too sure what prompted that. I am happy to see the scale moving, its quite thrilling. I feel like I've been putting in the work to get that result though. I really need to start to exercise though, I want to lose some inches. I have a pair of jeans I am dying to fit into! Ugh, and today I have to shopping for a pair of pants, I HATE pant shopping!! Wish me luck on that one!

-Aimee

aimee - that's awesome on your loss :carrot: WTG!! that was one thing I was dreading. Overweight people don't look pregnant while they're pregnant. They just look....overweight. I so want to have the cute belly and cute maternity clothes. Why not eat something small before you head over there? So you don't overindulge on bread and lasagna (yummy)? Just eat a small piece of lasagna and small piece of bread. And lots of water so you get full and aren't tempted to eat or drink more. Good luck!!