Good Day chickees!
I am OFF Program today...I am feeling better, and gaining my strength back, so today will be my last day off the program. Tomorrow I will be back on full force. I will begin full , all out, BFL workouts tonight. I am not sure if I want to do the diet portion of their program or not. I do not know if I could stick with it. I may try it for a week and see how it goes.
I am feeling pretty good today. I had a really hard time getting out of bed at 5:30 this AM. I don't remember the drive to work at all. I think I slept the entire 45 minute drive here!
Yesterday one of the PArents to one of the kids in my class asked me if I was having another baby!!!!
THE HORROR!!!!! I COULD NOT BELIEVE SHE ASKED ME IF I WAS HAVING ANOTHER BABY!!! DO I LOOK PREGNANT??? I HAVE GOT TO GET BACK ON PROGRAM ASAP!!!!
Since everyone else is rededicating themselves to theri programs I will too. I need to make every day for the rest of my life an OP day...to get what I want only I can achieve it...I want to be thin, strong, and healthy,...I want to be able to run a 5K, race in a 5 K, and win a 5K. I want to be able to run up my steps and not get winded...I want to be able to play soccer with my sons...I want to look in the mirror and think I am beautiful, and I love my body. I want to be able to read that look on my BF's face...
I WANT TO WEAR A BIKINNI!!!! i WANT TO HAVE A FLAT STOMACH....i WANT TO WEAR A BELLY SHIRT, A BELLY CHAIN, AND TO GET MY BELLY BUTTON PIERCED...i WANT TO LOSE WEIGHT SO i CAN BE ME!!!!i AVOID PEOPLE i KNOWIN THE GROCERY STOREBECASUE i DON'T WANT THEM TO SEE HOW FAT i HAVE GOTTEN! I hang my head in public, and watch the ground I have become ashamed of myself. HOW DID I GET THIS WAY????? WHy did I let it happen?????? I hate it!!!!! I hate it!!!!
There is one thing standing betwen me and the person that I want to be....FOOD! Food is my enenmy, food is my friend. it decieves me with its sweetness, and comfort, and then it packs on the pounds when I am not looking. I can work out, I know what I should do!...but first I have to learn how to handle food.....not as my friend, not as my enenmy, but as it is...fuel for my body....nothing more......I need to make choices about food, and not let whatever food is laying around make the choice for me. And I need to get some better friends than the cookies, and candy bars i have befriended...they just make me fat and lazy! I will spend more time with my friends online, and my friends in flesh and blood, and less time with food!!!!
Fralick and Hopeful, there is a detox diet in this weeks Womens World mag, it claims to help detoxify your body helping you to burn fat more efficiently, so that you can get through your plateau...it may be worth a look...I thought about trying it myself. Some people lost 10 pounds in one week....
Have a good Day!