Confession Time!
 

I have a confession to make. I drank a chocolate milkshake from Steak n Shake last night. My boyfriend and his friend wanted milkshakes, and I said, "ME TOO!" While waiting for them to come back from the milkshake run, I thought about how I could pour half of it in a glass, and save the rest for another day, or even give to BF. Then they gave me my milkshake, and the straw never left my mouth until it was gone. As I drank, I thought the worst case scenerios about how much fat and calories were in it, but I didn't dare look it up. A few minutes after killing the shake that never had a chance, my heart began to pound from all the sugar, and I felt all icky and buzzy.

Alright, now make me feel better and tell me how you did (or didn't!) skip off plan this week.

I'm sitting here eating a couple of hershey kisses as I'm reading this...lol Does that help :D

I ate a chocolate bar today..... Shhhhh!

I seem to have more bad days than good lately. I'm back on track today though.

You should look up the fat and sugar and calories. Seriously. Not to be mean, just to keep it real. It will help next time! Reality is what it takes to do this and maintain it.

I wanted chocolate so bad today but there is a blizzard outside and my car is stuck in 3 feet of snow so thank goodness, the weather saved me. I was rationalizing that its organic chocolate sure its calorie dense but hey its all natural.

I agree with Julie, you should now how many calories were in it, as scary as that prospect is. However, its one milkshake yesterday and today is a different day.

I have been SO BAD this week.

Yesterday I had cake for lunch. Shhh don't tell. My dinner yesterday was light and lean and full of veggies.

Today we went to Fire of Brazil for lunch. I'm not even going to mention the dietary badness I participated in there. My dinner is shrimp stir fry for tonight.

I think my one saving grace is that I've been in the gym pretty regularly this month, otherwise I'd be in deep trouble.

At school me and two other girls baked these weird dishes of apple, syrup (which consisted of brown sugar, maple syrope, and butter) with pancake mix on top.... anyways.. After baking it, smelling it, and then serving it, I decided to have a small piece (about 3 bites). I didn't feel guilty about it because I didn't binge for it, I consciously decided to treat myself. Afterward though, I decided that it totally wasn't worth it.

hum, I just finished off 2 small glasses of Sangria and Sprite.

I was really bad this week. I didn't eat breakfast 2 days in a row. Yesterday for lunch I had a big bowl of pasta with meat sauce. For dinner I had BLT's with real mayo (not lite) and chips. Today I had a turkey burger with Fries for lunch and MORE pasta for dinner Don't forget the bread with butter. I feel like crap! And my face is broken out. However, I got on the scale and I was 137, I never weigh 137 at night. Who knows! Maybe one day I will get this right!

Honestly, I have been so good this week. Went into the M&M store here in NYC this weekend (on a mini-vaca with wifey) and DID NOT GET A THING. Same with the Hershey store. I am still on Ph1 and ALMOST bought some SF chocolate just to have something, but didn't. I went to a pharmacy, got some SF hard candy and a SF energy drink and that was my snack.

At dinner tonight, I got a ceasar salad (dressing on side since it was full fat) and salmon with tomatoes and beans while my wife sat across from me and at a twice baked potato and manhattan clam chowder. I even gave her half my salmon (the waitress didn't hear her order her entree so one never came out for her) -- but dessert sure did! The waitress also brought an extra fork for her apple pie dessert. But I did not touch it. I promptly went to Starbucks and got a SF, Skim Vanilla latte to satisfy my sweet tooth.

Not to mention I had walked a lot, IN SNOW!, today so while I am tired now, I am very proud of myself. First time EVER I didn't cave in. I soooo know I am ready to do this again.

I am sorry if this sounds punchy or braggy. I just really need to continue to psych myself up!

okay, so I looked up the damage on that milkshake: 780 calories, 22g fat!! i didn't stay at the site long enough to see the sugars. totally gross, either way. but, confessing to you girls made it easier to stay good for the rest of the week. and when i weighed in today, i was down another 1.6 pounds from last sunday! i now weigh 174.4, for the first time since i was 16. I'm celebrating by NOT eating any junk until Christmas, when i will indulge in a small treat of my choice. ;)