:hug: Thanks you guys your thoughts and concern mean so much :hug:

(Can I come back?)

I haven't been here in MONTHS. Life got crazy, I gave up... stopped exercising, bounced my weight back up and fell apart.

But now, I have a group of friends and we have been supporting each other. I have gone back down the weight I had lost, plus a little more. My scale now weighs a number I haven't seen in a year or more.

I still have to get back into the exercise routine, but life is finally getting back to normal after my DH broke his arm and was out of work for a while (self employed = no pay).

So, I'm wondering if y'all will guide me a long again. I am off to go looking at the chick peas snack that everyone loved when I was here last.

Has Kara been around lately? She was in the process of a major move last time I was here.

Some of the rest of you were here when I was last, though. It's good to see you. :D

BTW, I remember someone doing this, and it has helped me. I'm following P2, but using WW points to keep me in check as well. It's helping me quite a bit!

Fluffy you know you are always welcome back here! We kept your spot open on the beach. Lots of new friends here and many of the old. Glad to have you back!

Welcome back Fluffy! Glad to hear you've come back to join us. As far as Kara goes, since she moved to Germany we haven't heard from her. But there's always a lot of support when you need it!

Welcome back, Fluffy!

:hug: to gonna and jessie

I still haven't heard back from the district attorney's office. The criminal database hasn't been updated. I guess I'll hear something eventually.

Hi Fluffy, Welcome back and glad to hear that you are back on track.

Thoughts and prayers are with all with "issues" today.

*whew* glad you saved me a spot.

I am actually roasting me some of those chick peas right now, and my kids keep asking when they will be done. :lol

UPS finally delivered the maternity clothes that I ordered from OldNavy.com.

The shirts are big! I need them for our vacation next week so I don't have time to return them. I ordered a pair of jeans as well that are way way way too big....DH said that I might grow into them in the waistband....I might, but I would have to put on about 100 lbs. in my legs to make the butt and legs look normal. Back to the store they go, thankfully I have a pair of jeans from before pregnancy that still fit.

I think I'm going to wash the shirts (they are 100% cotton) in hot water to see if they will shrink a bit. They won't be that big when I get bigger, but still a little big in the chest and arms.

I did get a dark denim pencil skirt and a pair of trouser capris that fit really well and are really cute.

Hey there ladies! Still kinda been crazy around here with family in town but just popping in to say hi and catch up on reading :) Have a great day!

Zeff I had the same issue with shirts from Old Navy Maternity. My regular size is gigantic. I have one shirt I've kept trying on since 10 weeks and I think I've finally decided it will never fit right.

I do have a pair of khakis though that I adore and some yoga pants.

Hello everyone,

YEEEEEEEEEEUUUUUUUUUUUUH!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm down to 195 lbs! *does a little dance* HELLS YEAH!!!!

*cough*

I got butt nekkid and weighed myself just to see, because although I've been trying to avoid the scale, I figured it was time to do the weekly weigh in. Was very happy that I've went down another 3 lbs. Re-weighed myself when I put my clothes back on; was surprised to see that my simple t-shirt and black pajama pants weigh 3-4 lbs!

Well here is what's going on in my boring life, maybe someone has some advice. In case anyone remembers the custody drama going on with my BF, well, DL (that stands for Dumb Lawyer) is trying to get his mother's "testimony" impeached... or rather, is trying to have her impeached from the trial, I guess. I have a feeling that since he's trying to do that, he knows how much impact her BS and lies would actually have on a judge. And that's scary, because who knows if that plan will even work. Then that evil manipulator will have her say in the courtroom and that's not good. I am scared about having to testify in court... Lol, I will probably have an anxiety attack.

Speaking of disorders, my BF is bipolar. Took a long time for him to admit that he needed help (his disorder plus his mother's interference and lies ruined his marriage.) He finally did, just before it ruined our relationship and has been going to counseling and taking 2 different medications (and his psychologist is going to court with him.) Well the past couple of days he's been going into rages over irrational things, being very paranoid and acting way different.

I KNEW he went off his meds. I KNEW it. I kept confronting him about it, but that's his problem, he will lie and lie and lie and deny forever. He's in serious denial about so many things (like the fact that he really loved his wife and had a mental breakdown when she left!) Finally after a big blowup and fight with us last night, he admitted he stopped taking them, because he thought since he was better, he didn't need them anymore, and plus, he feels like taking the pills means there's something wrong with him and he doesn't want to admit that something is. I explained to him that he cannot help having bipolar disorder (and um, intermittent explosive disorder and the psychiatrist who prescribes the meds used 'schizophrenia' as a blanket term to describe all of his illnesses together), but unfortunately nothing can cure it. And to be better and to continue being better, he has to continue taking his pills, maybe for life. Being able to admit that you have a problem and cooperating with treatment shows that you are making an effort. It's nothing to be embarrassed about... So this morning, he started back on them, right in front of me.

Sometimes dealing with this is hard. People with such disorders often have a habit of feeling like they're better (because of the pills) and then stop taking them, and he's done this several times now. I told him he just can't keep doing this, especially if he is to have his daughter back in the home. I asked him did he want me to go up in court and stand up with him and proclaim him to be a good person and a good father? Then he needs to continue with his treatment and not let the petty anxieties about it get him down.

Anybody else involved with someone who has mental illness but is a decent human being for the most part? Or has mental illness themselves? God, sometimes I get so furious. We've been doing so good.. but then he went off the meds. And I knew it! Nothing can get past me.

There is cat food all over the kitchen floor and living room floor (which bf's ex-wife helped me vaccum the other day! Our vac's been broke) and it depresses me. Sometimes I just don't want to even deal with this crap but I know he has a problem and that he is a good guy and he is a wonderful father. But he's got a lot of rage directed at women, and me and ex wife know why. (Mommy Dearest...) This is not the sort of behavior he can do with kids around... not that he did, or ever has, but he could get out of control. Taking the pills and continuing with the therapy is the best treatment. He can't help that he has the illness. But he has to stop using his illness as an excuse for his behavior. He's the one with the power to get better by continuing on his meds and therapy. He is the only one who can choose to swallow those pills each day.

Any advice?

Sorry for the long drama but I didn't give the whole run down on our fight last night. I don't want to get into it. I'm just depressed, upset, feeling low, feeling pity for him because I know he's sorry... but there's only so much I can do to help. I thought I had helped him, I thought I was the one to break through to him that he truly had a problem. His ex wife was never able to do that... so I feel proud I was able to. And everything has been so good... but he went off the meds and the personality change was distinct. Jekyll and Hyde... He went between so many mood switches and personality switches last night in just mere minutes that it was truly a scary, creepy thing. Don't know any other way to explain it... I know it must be hard to have to deal with that. But he CAN control it, he CAN. The power is in his hands.

Sorry again. Just feel really low and crappy today.

Told him if he won't comply with his meds than I can't go to court with him. Will go with ex-wife, but can't go with him.

Good morning my beach buddies!
Just checking in...
Hot today almost 100...but even though its dry heat it's still hot!!
Working on day 7 phase one today...started off slow...was reading and almost forgot breakfast til 11am...

My thoughts and prayer go to all with issues and those not feeling well..and skinny vibes to all...
Cottage: Enjoy the pool...wish i had one in this heat...:)
Cat: Is that Jillian Michaels workout your doing called Shred? If so how do you like it? i just ordered it from Amazon..cant wait for it to arrive...
Everyone have a great today...I'll be checking in off and on today...

Sara

:congrat: Melanie!!
Way to go on your scale victory!!
Sorry you are going through all that right now...keep your chin up and try not to let it get you down...

Sara

:carrot: :dust: :broc:

:hug: Melanie - Stay strong. It sounds like you are doing the right thing. I've wondered if Robert has some type of mental illness, at least, paranoia but he's never been diagnosed. I'm sure he has had depression. And it has only gotten worse since I asked for a divorce.