Hi. I'm not sure how to start this but I'm currently about 5'6"-5'7" and weigh about 165 pounds (without most of my clothes on) but with clothes and everything I weigh about 171.5/172 pounds, and am a 19-year old male. I'm not sure how many pounds I really lost (since my old scale was very inaccurate, with average of about 10 pounds or more difference sometimes) and the new scale I bought isn't entirely accurate either (depends on EXACTLY which part of the scale I step on, I can weigh about 3-4 pounds more). The highest I weighed was probably about 180 or more (maybe even 190 dunno). In the past, I tried the typical starvation diet, not following it very good, and lost about 3-4 pounds. Last time I checked myself on my old scale before I started the Jorge Cruise plan, I was about 174 (without my sweater on which might be more or less 2-2.5 pounds). So, I probably lost about 5-6 pounds. All this calculating seems pretty frustrating to me because it may even seem like I lost no pounds at all or just about 3-5 pounds and this was about 4-5 months ago (I wasn't able to follow the plan and dropped it 2-3 months ago so I actually went on the plan like only a month or 2 months) and then I started it again like a month ago or so and it seemed like I lost no pounds at all or only 1-2 pounds. As you can see, this is getting frustrating more and more as I type it up. Still, the minimum range lowest I got was probably about 164 or so. Between the 1-2 months I dropped the program, it seemed like I regained all my weight back again. I realize that it was not Jorge Cruise plan that was the problem, it was my extreme lack of motivation, inspiration, and energy to follow the plan rigidly and for the required amount of time. I just couldn't stay motivated to follow everything in the plan, especially the "People Solution" part (the only thing I tried to follow in the Jorge Cruise plan was the exercises in the morning and the eating plan, both of which I also had extreme difficulty attempting to follow and many times I remember, especially during this past month, where I didn't eat at the right times and didn't wake up early in the morning and where on one or two occasions I ate more than recommended) - I know I should have followed everything but what he prescribes seems too hard, especially the "People Solution" and all those posters of encouragement, etc. stuff that I thought would've been a waste of time and which I had no energy to even attempt to do but right now I'm trying hard to follow them - do I really want to tell all my friends that I need to lose weight all the time? doesn't it sound silly?). In addition, I also have huge problems even trying to fall asleep/insomnia during the night so it ruins everything. Unfortunately, it seems that I am both emotionally/mentally and physically unhealthy. Most of the time I'm drained of energy and hit with negative thoughts that really kill my energy. This is really frustrating. I just can't stand this anymore. I really want to lose 48-49 pounds until I weigh 125 pounds without most of my clothes on and with them, at the maximum at 130. Obviously, a very long way to go, but it seems necessary if I want to really improve my appearance. I want to get out of this 165-175 lbs. range and hit the 125-130 lbs. range. Right now, my BMI is in the middle range of "overweight" at maximum; I really want to be in the lower range of the "normal BMI" area.

I'm repeating myself so many times, but it's just really frustrating. It's just very hard to stay motivated on the plan and I remember countless summers where I really wasted my time overeating and stressing about my problems or when I slept so late, ate so little number of times but big portions during those meals; time's really a wasting and sometimes I feel envious seeing so many youths my age/ethnicity, looking good and going out with so many girls, etc. The minute I'm typing right now I'm probably wasting some time already; I tried so hard to fall asleep but my sleeping problems are really kiling me, I've been taking sleeping pills for about a year or so and right now I'm trying to get off of them and trying to sleep "normally". 19...20....will I stay ugly my whole life? I'm such a procrastinator and so lacking in energy; I know, it's useless typing all this BS out but I can't seem to help it right now.

I'll give him/her my e-mail on PM if anyone is interested in being one of my weight-loss buddies.

for sleeping try valderiaren root pills they r all natural & my mom swears by them as se has alot of sleep problems I hope that helps & your just at your awkward stage hun your young you will out grow it by the time you hit 21, I bet you were A late bloomer...dont be so hard on yourself your weight is not bad for your height & the fact your A man..!!! keep your chin up things always get better I hope the valderian root helps it is also non addictive!

Thanks for the suggestion regarding the root pills. I'll try them out. And sorry, no, I wasn't a late bloomer, I was actually an early bloomer.... Yes, my initial post did seem a bit too emotional and maybe even "immature", but I was just really frustrated at the moment. I'm not really "obese" but I know I'm overweight and the real problem lies in the fact that most of the fat is really concentrated on my face and neck areas, making my face look ugly. That is why I really want to lose weight. If you saw me, you'd probably think I'm not overweight, but really I know I am and also according to the BMI charts; most people tend to look and concentrate at the stomach and behind areas, but I'm afraid in my case it's really the neck and face.