Hi Misty and
I'm glad your here
I think the best thing you could do is go to school, get a great education and then the job you've alway dreamed of....or at least a good paying one
I made that mistake years ago by not going to school and following my dreams. In the corporate world they really do treat you better depending on the level of your education (which stinks, people should be treated the same nonetheless) anyway...hang in there.
Much more, I'm glad your going to your doctor. I know its a hard thing to do but once you get there, you'll be happy you did. It will feel like the world has been lifted off your shoulders. Also remember, if this doctor doesn't help you, you can see another....they are a dime a dozen and one size does not fit all. Same goes with medication.
Hugs and kisses to you and good luck.