Where to start? I had a breakdown the other night. My boyfriend and I have been trying to have a baby for awhile with nothing happening. I took a pregnancy test and it was negative, yet again. Seeing that negative sign was my last straw. We want to start a family so bad, but my weight and health issues make that very difficult. I'm 20 years old, 230 pounds and have pre diabetes, metabolic syndrome, and insulin resistance. All of those things are a factor in why I haven't been able to get pregnant. Metabolic syndrome and insulin resistance make it extremely hard for women to get pregnant. When you want something so bad and you're the reason it's not happening, it hits you like a brick wall. I finally realized that major changes need to be made. What I want to accomplish is weight loss. Big or small amounts at a time, it doesn't matter. As long as I'm losing weight, I'm headed in the right direction of being 125 pounds. That's right in the middle of where my healthy weight should be for my height. I want to eat healthier foods so I can feel better physically and emotionally. I want to be able to look at myself in the mirror and think what I see is beautiful and be proud of myself. I want to lose this weight because I need to be healthy in order to have a baby. If i had a baby right now with my health issues, I'd risk both mine and my baby's life. I'd never be able to live with myself if I had a miscarriage and it was my fault. I need to get healthy so that I can live a long life with my boyfriend/future husband and see our grandkids have kids. It's going to be hard and it's going to be a **** of a lot of hard work. But it's going to be worth it when I see a positive sign on a pregnancy test. Support from you guys would be greatly appreciated because I'm going to need it. Good luck to everyone out there on their own weight loss journey. I wish you all the best.
Starting my weight loss journey.
