So as with anyone, I use New Years as my checkpoint as to how well I've achieved my goals in life. And every year I feel like a huge failure. Actually my birthday is on the 5th, so between New Years and the 5th, I obsess over everything that I need to do for the next year and think about all that I haven't accomplished. And I make a resolution to change my life. Quite a big resolution that never goes anywhere.
But I've decided this year that I'm not making a resolution. Making a resolution I feel gives me the opportunity to drop getting healthier. It makes me feel like I'm trying to do something temporarily just to achieve weight loss. And what I've come to terms with over the past 6 months (very slowly) is that I can't put in a temporary fix. I need to alter my life permanently to make good decisions and good choices to become healthier.
So my New Year's resolution this year is not to have a New Year's resolution. I'm just going to be and exist and move towards the good things as a way of life and not only due to the fact that it's now 2012. We'll see how this all works out. I have the beginnings of the one thing that I haven't had in a long time.....hope. And I'm determined to make a difference in my life. But I'm resolute in my decision to not have a resolution.