I agree with Shan....go buy a pregnancy test and find out if you are actually pregnant or not. You are "fortune-telling" here without validating if it is an actual reality.....thinking that the worst thing that could happen, has happened...without checking it out first.
This can cause you to feel depressed/anxious, which in itself will trigger binging......but can also cause you to think "what the heck, I'm gonna gain a bunch of weight from being pregnant so I might as well enjoy my food and worry about losing the extra weight after I have the baby".
And it's amazing what a 5 lbs gain can do to us.....in our mind, we've totally blown it....ruined everything.....driving us to give up and binge. It's only 5 lbs. If you don't get a handle on it, one day, you will look back and wish you had dealt with it when you were only up 5 lbs......not later when it was a much bigger and daunting number.
I have maintained for almost a year.....and all sorts of bad things have happened during that time (not to mention, major dental surgeries which have made chewing a major problem....and still is, until I can get the implants done in 4 months). What I always tell myself....when something bad happens is, "how much worse would it be having to go through this if I was still fat?" I actually sit and reflect/remember back to what it actually felt like to be fat....the depression, lack of self-esteem, despair, wanting to hide, etc. These things always made bad things so much worse. Gaining weight sure as **** is not gonna make things get any better, that's for sure. But it
will make things much worse. IMO, gaining back what we lost is worse than never having lost it at all....JMO, mind you....which is what this forum is for...giving our own personal advice and opinions.
And finally......children are always a blessing....even if they come at a bad time...esp. financially. It's just that this huge revelation comes years later....usually when they are grown. You will look back and realize this one day.....and thank God you had that third one (if this is indeed a reality). I lost my youngest (3rd child, a son) in an accident in '06 at the age of 17....and he came at a very financially bad time. But that was all water under the bridge years later, when I couldn't imagine not having him in my life.....which I would later have to learn to deal with....and I'd give anything to have him back.
Right now, your mind is totally focused on the immediate problems this could cause you. And the stress and worry from this is making you fall off plan and gain some of the weight back.....which is just making the downward spiral worse.
Calm down.....it's not as bad as you think. You have gotten through tough times before, right? And you will get through this one too. You do NOT want to make this any worse by gaining your lost weight back....believe me...been there and done that....it's devastating. And do you really want to cause a devastating event like that to start happening, in addition to what you're already having to deal with right now?
Life never remains stable.....it's the nature of the beast....and things are always coming at us from left field.....most of which we can't predict and never see coming. We NEED to try to maintain the positive things we have achieved....not give ourselves permission to blow/lose them...which we will regret terribly later. Because bad things happening are going to be a reality for the rest of your life and my life (and everyone's life).....and you might as well learn how to deal with them without gaining all the weight back...and it might as well be right now.
In fact, if you can get control of this, I bet it will make you feel a LOT better, despite the worries. And in addition to bad things that happen to us....there are also always good things coming down the pike all the time. So don't quit before the miracle.
deena
Lost motivation. Too much on my mind
