Someone talk me off the ledge, please. I have about an hour until the kids go to bed, & then I'm alone with my wandering thoughts. I've not been perfect today - allowed some foods I should not have eaten. However, I'm well within normal caloric intake (~1650 cals for the day), but had a very stressful day and am having serious anxiety.
I already know that I want to eat, eat, eat as soon as the kids are in bed & before DH gets home - about a 2 hour span of time. Plenty for me to do real damage.
I won't check back in for another hour. If anyone is online & reads this, I'll check back to get my head straight. I know I'll regret it in the morning, but I can already tell I'm in that mindset... Soooooo, close to making it 1 full week!!!
Let's think of things you can do in those 2 hours that will give you that same feeling of indulgence without being unhealthy.
Some of my favorite things are: Taking a long, hot bubble bath; painting my nails a fun color; cleaning or organizing something (this might be because I'm a little OCD. haha); browsing cute clothes I'd like to wear online, READING THE GOAL AND MINI-GOAL SUB FORUMS; watching some really trashy, embarrassing television program.
These are some things I use, but they probably wouldn't work for everyone. For me, I find the key is feeling like I'm indulging myself with something other than food. I hope this helped a little, just know that you're not alone. This is almost a nightly struggle for me as well!
If you don't I won't. I too am on the ledge. I just have that bingy feeling. I just finished dinner, DS is going to be in a couple hours and DH is working overnight tonight. DH has been working overnight for the last 6 months Friday and Saturday nights. This is when I struggle. I made it through last flawless, I wanted to but I beat it down and the scale thanked me this morning - a new low weight! So I'm digging in as hard as I can because I don't want to have to relose it and I'm running tomorrow morning and a binge always makes me have a crummy run.
Thankfully, this is DHs last overnight, but part of me feels like this is my last opportunity it binge for a while - so ridiculous. I have a great dessert of soy ice cream, nuts and strawberries that will put me over my cals slightly but of my plan works and it kills the binge then I don't care. We're also doing pizza tomorrow so I don't have room for a binge.
I just want this feeling to go away, I just want to eat when I'm hungry, stop when I'm full and not think about food at any other time.
It is soooooo HARD! I am hungry, besides, which isn't helping. I feel like anything I put in my mouth right now will start this thing rolling.
I, too, want to get to the point where I'm not thinking about food 24 hours/day. It seems like that is all I do. If it isn't planning out meal(s), it is figuring out how I can squeeze in a snack and still stay on my plan or thinking about what to feed kids/DH, or needing to grocery shop, etc. It is always about FOOD. I could scream.
My SIL and my DH can go for hours - like almost an entire day - and not eat (or even really think about it). I'm always thinking about what I ate, what I will eat next, and what I wish I could eat...and then thinking about that stupid scale. 60 lbs ago I thought that the weight loss clinic I attended was crazy for saying 145 was a decent goal weight. Now, I'm hardly even satisfied here anymore. I still have all the same issues, my pants are just smaller. Don't get me wrong, I'm lovin' the smaller pants, I just want to find inner peace & self-acceptance...and STOP THINKING ABOUT FOOD.
8:45 in the midwest - I'm still holding strong. 3 more hours until DH gets home & lots of kitchen clean-up to take care of. I guess my hands will at least be busy...
10pm - I opted for 1/2 bag of light popcorn for 110 calories. I'm no longer dealing with a rumbling tummy and while my anxiety stays high, I think I've moved past the urge.
Thanks for being here with me tonight. I needed to hear that someone else was out there dealing with a similar situation.
I hope you all stayed strong & had a successul night. It's not over here, but I'm just feeling tired now. Will do the minimum & get out of the kitchen.
Glad to hear you beat it, I wish I could say I kept up my end of the bargain, but not exactly. It wasn't the worst binge ever, but a binge non the less. It's over now thankfully and I'm hopeful that DH not doing the overnights anymore will bring me out of this funk. I had a really good 4 months or do in the beginning of the year when I just wasnt binging, I'd really like to get back there. Im making progress though, so I just have to keep up the work. It's worth it, I love my smaller pants
I'm so there with you!! While I was in the mode of losing weight, I never binged. Maybe once or twice in 6 months. Fast forward to maintenance, and I find myself dealing with all the same crud all over again. Stinks.
I agree that it is worth it to keep working on this. I've made a huge step into therapy recently, and am hopeful that eventually I'll get to the bottom of this & just quit. For good.
Let's get some sleep. Tomorrow is a new day. You'll have a GREAT run. Our DH's will be back home. Let's focus on self-respect...I'm hanging on tight to that mantra. I will respect myself. Repeat it. Believe it.
I'm feeling pretty good this morning. The binge damage was minimal on the scale which is motivating me to hang tight today. I'm really hoping the change in DHs schedule will minimize the weekend binging. I usually only struggle at night and that element will be removed so I'm hopeful.
Yeah I'm pretty dissappointed to still be struggling with binging in maintenance. I guess that's what they mean when they say weight loss doesn't solve everything. It boggles my mind because I feel so awesome about my weight loss and getting my body back and that they fact that I'd ever do anything to jeopardize that is just incredible.
Anyway, change is usually good for me so I think next week will bring good things! Let's stay strong! Time for a good breakfast and a long run!
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