Sigh.
My hubby and I were bad this past week. My husband has lost over 140 lbs doing atkins with cheating one meal per week. So I usually do a cheat meal too each week so I don't consider that being 'bad'.
Anyway he's starting to get sick of his diet so I'm trying to find new things for him (made him homemade low-carb clam chowder soup last week), but despite that he's been wanting to cheat more and more. And he also is having issues with his psoriatic arthritis and he is in constant pain and currently can't even get up and around on his own. I feel so bad for him. He wanted pizza friday night, but i talked him out of it since we had oven pizza already earlier in the week and I knew his mom had gotten him mcdonald's that day for lunch. But then that's ALL he could talk about Saturday. He had also been talking about a stupid cookie cake all week too since he had a peice for his dad's birthday the weekend before (another cheat day though he was good when we went out to dinner for it). When I was about to the store I asked if there was anything I could get him to make him feel better he said a cookie cake. :P So against my better judgement I got him one. then because I don't like cookie cake I had some warped idea that it wasn't fair that he got cookie cake and I didn't so I bought some cinnamon rolls which we ate Sunday morning then proceeded to order pizza on Sunday night.
Today I stepped on the scale and was nearly 2 lbs heavier! I know it might just be water or the fact that all this bad eating has made me irregular. But I'm not going to use that as an excuse. It took me a month to lose those 2 lbs and only a week to put them back on! I'm debating on moving my ticker to 203.2. I guess I should. :P
Anyway, instead of giving up like I would have in the past I am going to recommit myself. I am going ot eat really clean this week. I would say I am not going to cheat but I am in a wedding this weekend and I know the rehersal dinner and reception will probably prevent me from being 100% good on those days. But every other day? Clean eating! Also all the extra walking and social activity should help burn extra calories (i have severe social anxiety and being matron of honor is not condusive to that, so my heart rate should be up all weekend! lol).
On the plus side I did learn a few things:
#1 I can no longer eat sweets like I used to. Maybe I need to see a dentist, but those cinnamon rolls were SOOO sweet my teeth hurt.
#2 My skin is worse when I eat bad. Maybe its just stress of hubby being sick, but usually i just break out right before AF arrives and I've had a big zit that resembles a bug bite on my cheek for a week now that isn't going anywhere and a few others popping up.
#3 My digestive track really doesn't like crappy food anymore. I don't think it knows what to do with itself. bleh.
Overall, I am getting myself back on track. I got a compliment from my hair stylist last week that my face looked thinner.
My pants are all too big for me besides the 2 new ones I bought and I intend on keeping them that way. I do not want to grow back into them!
Okay, I guess I feel better. I feel more accountable anyway. Usually I would have kept this to myself and not told anyone and probably fell back into my old ways.
Thanks to anyone who read my ramble.
I have a confession...
Then the decision is his.
What takes me weeks to lose took 1 meal to gain. 
Onederland here we come!!
