So I was at school today, having a conversation with someone in my class as I do. I'm trying to be more outgoing, just to open up. I want to accept more responsibility and... I don't know, make living worth it, I guess.
Anyways, so we were talking about hard drives and all of that, and he mentions that the majority of his are full of pictures because he's a photographer. We went off on another subject, but he ended up bringing it back up and asking if I'd ever be interested in modeling.
I was flustered by this, so I didn't really internalize the details, but he mentioned that it wasn't anything weird, and he wouldn't go past my comfort zone. Due to the seasons, he also needs an answer by the end of the weekend (the leaves are close to changing colors, and that's a big part of it).
Wow! I don't know what to do! On the one hand, I have a horrible self image and I don't see myself as much. This could, perhaps, work to break that horrible self esteem and self confidence and bad self image that I have. Losing weight has made me feel better about myself, but it hasn't made me more confident with my body or appearance I think. This could work to overcome that. What's the worst that could happen?
At the same time, I'm thinking just that. What if the worst happens? I'm afraid! I'm afraid of leaving my comfort zone. I'm afraid of being embarrassed. The easier thing to do is to respectfully decline.
But then again, the easier thing to do is to eat whatever I want and not worry about my weight. The easier thing to do is to avoid doing my homework and studying. The easier thing to do is to hide at home.
What do you guys think I should do? What would you, personally, do if someone you knew asked if you would model for them?



