As I sit here, I realize I'm going to be 22. 22 and 320 pounds and unhappy with life. If I died tomorrow, it wouldn't really matter. I have no dreams, no ambitions. Between my health and mental issues, things are stacked against me. I can't work and the only enjoyment I get out of life is checking my email and talking to friends online.
So I need to change this. I've joined this site before, but never really stuck with it. I need to. I want to change. I don't want to be alone and unhappy forever. I want to have dreams again and I can't achieve them at this weight.
I quite possibly have Myasthenia Gravis, which is overall muscle weakness, but I can't get diagnosed until my SSI gets through, so while there may be help from meds in the future, not anytime soon.
I have PCOS and Insulin Resistance working against me. I'm on a mood stabilizer that made me gain 40. I'm very sedentary and angry all the time, I snap at everyone and the dogs fear my wrath when I scream at them. I'm not a happy person to be around.
I love food. I don't know how to not love food, or just love food less. I wish I did. Even if I diet, my food choices are limited because I'm Gluten Free. I should be dropping all carbs/sugars, due to my Insulin Resistance, but what will that leave me to eat? Meat, fruit, cheese, veggies. I hate veggies. I like maybe 3. I just hate them.
I drink 44 ounces of fountain pop a day and I know-know-know it's horrible, but I'm addicted to it.
Movement hurts, I can't even walk half a mile without shin-splints and my sides hurting. Ive been out of shape for years; I was home schooled due to my anxieties, so I never had gym or shape or whatever my siblings have. I don't know where to even begin. I get an idea, "Oh, I'm going to work up to walking a mile a day!" and then die off at day 3 because the pain/tiredness
My brother and sister are skinny, in shape, perfect... I'm jealous of them, every day when I look at them and then at myself and it's not fun. If people touch me, I'm afraid they'll be grossed out by my weight, so I shy away. I can't wear anything cute; do they even make cute things in my size? I stopped wearing jeans 2 years ago, resorting to 'fat' stretch pants.
I don't know what to do. I'm at the end of my rope and I'm struggling and lost. What can a person with muscle weakness (MG) possibly do to start losing weight? Help...
Unfortunately I don't have any advice for you when it comes to muscle weakness. Is it possible that you could find some water aerobics somewhere in your area??? That would take the strain off your knees and legs and might be the ticket for you. It's worth a try, though. At 22 years old you're still SO young...so you've got a lot of time to work on your health and you can still bounce back, being so young.
I'm a Southerner, born and raised...so giving up a lot of food was hard for me. But it's funny...doing Southbeach and detoxing from sugar and starches those first 2 weeks REALLY did eliminate the cravings I had for them. I never thought I'd give up my potatoes...but I have and I don't miss them!!! What I'm saying is that you'll be surprised by what you can do when you get it in your head that you are going to try and succeed this time. I've been heavy since elementary school and finally resolved to do something about it...I'm down over 50 pounds already, but I've still got a long ways to go.
There's lots of support and encouragement to be found around here...so jump right in and let us encourage you and help you continue on your journey to a healthier you.
First, BELIEVE in yourself. Assert that you CAN make changes. You really can. I would put money on it, that if you get creative, and take some of the brilliant ideas from ladies here at 3FC that you can get a decent amount of weight off by first dieting, and then exercising. If exercise seems rather far off, set it aside, but just for now. Start with a change in what you eat and drink. I believe you can do it. And that your worth it. You deserve to dream, to want more and to have a better quality of life!!
Welcome to 3FC! There is a lot here for you. A forum for PCOS, Insulin Resistance, 20 somethings (a group I love) and tons more. Get excited girly! We are here for you!!!
Congrats on reaching out and coming back to the forums. What has the doctor suggested about exercise? I might suggest a dietitian as well since they would be used to working with folks who need to be GF.
In losing my weight I decided to do something that I could do every single day for the rest of my life, so I limited my portions since I was eating 2-3x as much as I should have been and started to eat food closer to nature. Eventually my tastes changed from pop tarts and pop to brown rice and vegetables.
Tastes can change, bodies can heal and you are way to young to not give this every effort. You are just as good as your siblings, you just have a different road to take. I want this so much for you and wish you all the best in this. It can be done.
welcome!
Congrats on taking the first step and wanting to make a change.
I have rheumatoid arthritis and celiac disease amoung other things so I can relate to you with the muscle pain and the gluten free diet!
I will tell you this just make the decision to change your life from this point on! you can do it!!!!!
Follow the diet you need to and make it a lifestyle change. Stop turning to food i know it is hard but find another hobby. Maybe start walking and build your way up to more exercise. I know that once you start losing weight you will feel lighter and in less pain.
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