[Philosia]

Hello,

I joined this site about a year ago, but I wasn't very active. Now, I rediscovered the forums and I hope I'll find my place somewhere .

Last year, my lowest weight was 176#, but then I started a binge that lasted about 6 months and I gained back 60# . I practically didn't ate real food, only junk and junk. Last year, I lost that weight doing low carb or WW (by myself) and I even tried diet pills in the beginning... .

I feel terrible about the weight gain, I'm so ashamed because after everybody congratulated me on my success, they have witnessed my failure... I have to go to my urologist (kidney stones) and my dentist for check-ups, but I am avoiding making the appointments because I fear their face expression after they see me in this degrading state . My dentist, who is also overweight, even asked a lot of details in hope of helping him losing weight too... I'm so ashamed... my coworkers, my relatives, all the people in my life... I feel the taste of failure, even though they are kind and not one of them made any remarks regarding my weight gain...

Anyway, since march, I started again and this time I think it will be better... I find that counting calories is the way for me, I really do think that I can do CC all my life. I eat almost 1400 cals daily and I'm trying to walk more and drive less, also I'm drinking plenty of water. It's amazing for me to really enjoy the foods that I've started to prepare myself and to not feel hungry throughout the day. Planning all my meals and snacks keep me out of binge territory. I feel so good eating healthy, I'm starting to live again .

Hope to "see" you all around and my wish for you is to enjoy your journey...

Kisses

[Ciao]

Good luck. I too am starting my weight loss today and this site is inspiring me. It won't be easy, but I'm determined.

[Philosia]

Sierra, I also wish you good luck and I hope you'll meet your goal. What is your plan for losing weight? Have you decided yet?

[Sairz]

Philosia,
I'm right there with you. I had Lap Band surgery about 5 years ago and lost 25kg to start with, and then my emotional baggage got in the way and I put it all back on again. I know exactly how you feel, no one has said anything, but there is a drastic difference in my appearance between now and then, and I'm starting from scratch again.

Good luck, I hope calorie counting works for you, I'm trying to up my activity and movement and exercise as my first step. I've been way too sedentary.

Sairz

[Ciao]

@ Philosia; I'm going to run. I use to run track A LOT last year, but I pushed myself too much and sprained my hip, so I was out the whole season. So now I'm running little by little every day to help out, and also I'm turning to healthier foods. I absolutely love fruits and veggies, so I'm going to eat right and take it one day at a time.

[Philosia]

@Sairz: I realized, that also my emotions lead me to this state... my bf went to Canada and I'll be there by the end of this year. It's very hard to have a long distance relationship after 5 years of living together, but the waiting will be over soon. It took me more than six month to come back to my senses and find balance in my life in order to begin the healthy lifestyle...

@Sierra: I thing it's great that you can start running and that you have been use to that... I am waiting to shed a few more pounds until I can restart running.