Here I go.....

  • Hello all,

    Here I go again...I guess since this will make 3 times to lose significant weight and each time I gain back more I'm officially (although hopefully temporarily) a yo-yo dieter. I’ve never really considered myself a dieter though, I’m more of a food-a-holic. When I lose weight, I lose the a-holic side and eat like what I would consider would be like a normal person and thus, drop down to a normal weight. Then sooner or later I convince myself it would be ok if I ate that little piece of --- (fill in the blank) and there I go again. Slowly slowly loosing ever more control of it until it’s back to full scale nonsense. Eating eating eating all day…thinking about what I can eat and when 2 minutes after I’ve stopped eating.

    My previous coping mechanisms / motivations that had proven, at least temporally highly successful, have fallen away. I thought/I hope having a place to come and write and read, to inspire and be inspired would be a good way to distract myself from my intense cravings and emotional need to eat. I don’t want to have to do this again. I hate how this feel. I hate the literal fear I have to face to give up the food that calms me. And I hate the fear that I live with knowing if I don’t stop where it will lead.

    So yeah, maybe a little bit TMI for an introductory post. I haven’t scoped out the site enough to know if there are other food addicts out there but, surely I’m not the only one. And hopefully, someone will have suggestions, beside medication, to help get me where I need to be…and help me stay there. It’s like I need AA for food.

    So, hi I’m Ila (pronounced E-La) and I’m a food addict. It’s 2 hours since my last fix. My goal today is to go the next 5 hours without French fries, candy, ice cream, potatoes, potato chips, or mounds of pasta or popcorn. My ultimite goal is to lose 76 lbs and this time to stay off the "crazy train."

    Here I go….
  • Welcome to 3FC! What you are looking for almost HAS to be here somewhere.

    I am food addict as well. I eat quite healthily generally, but I eat way way too much. I eat for almost any mood. I'm happy and I want food. I'm sad and I want food. I'm depressed and I want food. I want to eat just to be eating.

    I've tried to limit my portions and eat only when I'm hungry. But I haven't had much luck with that. In fact I gained about 10 lbs trying it this last time. Now, I eat South Beach and use Weight Watchers online so I don't go off track. I just started South Beach. I find it easier to manage having something objective to aim for. If I didn't keep track with WW I'd have to keep track of calories.

    There are plenty of people here with the same problem. Its a great place for encouragement and support. Wishing you the best!
  • Hello and welcome to the community. It's good to know that may are interested in this kind of forum. Enjoy.
  • Thank you both for your welcome. I wonder how many out there are litterally counting minutes/hours around food. I've gone 36 hours w/o junk and normal portions...maybe a bit bigger but nothing compaired to a typical day for me. I'm getting excited. 3hrs 15min to go till my next goal. I just have to make it to breakfest and through breakfest w/o loads of sugar and fried foods. I think I'll go for an egg and some oatmeal.


    Sophia, I didn't quite understand what you said.
  • Hi Ila!

    Welcome and good luck with your weight loss!