I had gone 25 days without any unplanned eating/binges/disordered eating.

Back to day 1 again now, found myself eating 2 bagels, 3 ww cakes and a handful of Goji berries. I feel completely stuffed right now, and my tummy hurts!
There is a silver lining however, the food's weren't terrible and it's a huge leap forward from past binges and the junk I'd eat :O
I was also planning a small treat meal in a weeks time-Really, knowing full well it would probably lead to a binge episode. The uncomfortable feeling atm, has reminded me why I'm trying to do this!

The past few days have been quite draining emotionally, and I think that's why I wanted to binge, to numb it all out a bit.

Even with this positive spin, I do feel quite disheartened. I will do a bit of extra exercise tomorrow to compensate, and try hard to not dwell over this!

I am glad to have somewhere to vent this

good for you on your honest reflections.

separating our emotions from our relationship with food is such a hard task, and probably food will always maintain emotional relevance.

i guess the trick is to come to an understanding of the triggers, and then try to re-order the emotional and practical response.

keep on keeping on. and be easy on yourself okay?

isolde

I know how you feel! I had a bad weekend. I snacked A LOT. I feel like it's a vicious cycle... yesterday I had to make some bars for a party I was going to. I had to try them to make sure I put enough topping on them and the sugar from that tiny sliver of a bar sent me into the hungry every hour cycle. TOM is coming up, so that didn't help at all. Today was a little bit better than yesterday, but not much... I have looked at my food log and realized that I didn't drink enough water and I definitely didn't get in enough fruits and veggies. I also realized that I should have eaten before the party and just skipped the party food altogether. I learned from this weekend, so I'm over it and moving on!

I hear ya! One thing that I am really trying to do is to evaluate my emotions before I feel like I want to binge. I know it will take time and in the meantime, all I can do is try my best.