what the **** happened?
What the **** happened??!! Last week was a joke! Ate like crap didn't hit the gym at all and honestly didn't feel guilty about it. I didn't hit my easter goal either...in fact, I'm about 7 pounds shy of it. On top of that I've gained 3 pounds!! What happened to my spunk? My drive? My will to succeed??! I think I go to comfortable. Let my old habits sneak up slowly. Got to comfortable with my big loss from march. Too overconfident, I'm sure. But how do I get it back? How do and get my focus and motivation back. Now that I've lost weight and see that its possible there's no reason to stop now. Why can't I break thru?! Well, probably because when I woke up this morning, stoked to hit the gym I nearly fell to the floor. My back pain, the back pain that forced me start shedding pounds, is back! One week w/out exercise or back strengthening exercise and I'm back to popping pain pills (which haven't worked all day)m when I finally did make it downstairs my living room was full of hot emt's and firefighters...my grandfather was having dizzy spells and chest pains. I feel weak and sluggish and depressed, and the unemployment just isn't helping. I have no clue when I'll be able to exercise again since I can't even move, and when I do get back to it how long will it last? How long before I lose it again and have to start All OVER?
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