story of my life...[long, getting it off my chest] - 3 Fat Chicks on a Diet Weight Loss Community

tandifrass · 03-25-2009, 12:30 AM

Well, I'm so on again, off again...but hopefully this time there is no off... of all the ****ty stuff in my life this is the one I can and NEED to control... I just feel like everything in my life go tout of hand... my body, my finances, spending time with my daughter, working at a job I hate... not to mention I live on lake huron and it s sooo cold all the time... I hate the cold!! I need to get on a schedule that works in working out, and looking my best, and keeping my house clean, doing well in school, spending time with my daughter...but it just seems like there aren't enough hours in the day... it really sucks... and like I said I hate my job. My boss makes me feel like crap on a daily basis.. but I make good money and I'm getting a raise even, I just feel like it kills my spirit, ya know? It isn't what I love doing which is hair, but the salons up here are pretty low key and I wouldn't make enough to support my family, and it's like i have to give up part of myself, and sacrifice my self worth to pay the bills.blah. I just need to get my life back on track. I need to remember that in 2 years I will have a Master's degree and make some serious money doing something I love, and in 2 years my bf will have a degree and we can finally have money to get married and have a house, and live hapily ever after... a bit far fetched I know, but it will help get me through the day so i'm all for it! Well my house is clean [except my bedroom] , the bf and I have straightened out some hard feelings we had, I worked out tonight, got a big part of my homework for next week done, played with my daughter and took a nap today. good day. usually I don't get days off, though, cuz I go to school both the days i have off from work so it's like I don't have days off... I just don't know what I'm going to do for the situation my life is in now... in 2 yrs working 9-5 5 days a week with weekends and holidays off and paid vacation, and not going to school, life will be a cinch. Especially making $50ish an hour. but when $11 an hour is good money for me right now, and the bf has a temporary job at Wal-Mart cuz he got laid off 3 times in a row, and working 40 hours, going to school 12 hrs in class with 10 hrs of driving to get to and from school, doing an internship, and taking an online class right now, my life is a big burn out. I wish i could work part time but 20 hrs a wk at like $8 an hour won't work, esp. with no definite job for the bf. sigh. I guess I just had alot to get out.

K8-EEE · 03-25-2009, 01:39 AM

Well I have to say I really, really admire you for your hard work, dedication, ambition and focus! You have a lot on your plate for sure. It sounds like you have a lot of rewards on the horizon though.

I always think it sounds so cozy and romantic to live in a snowy climate, although I notice around this time people who do start sounding good and sick of it! Spring is just around the corner! hang in there!

brooksrm · 03-25-2009, 01:48 AM

I just finished my master's thesis so I am finally done with that journey. Sounds like you're just starting out, but with good guidance from your advisers it will be well worth it.

I could bog this thread down with my own story and work/school frustrations but it sounds like you've got enough for right now

Keep your chin up and it will be over before you know it.

futuresurferchick · 03-25-2009, 10:23 AM

Wow tandifrass, you are one busy woman.

I admire you for doing your best to get through this busy time of your life. Maybe 2 years down the road you will look back on this time in your life with fondness for the craziness of it.

Maybe instead of trying to tackle everything in your life and getting overwhelmed, just deal with little things that you do have time for, for now. Celebrate the little things you manage to get done and try to take some time to relax and enjoy life if you can.

tandifrass · 03-26-2009, 12:12 AM

brooks: ugh how I wish I were just starting, this is year 4 of 6... I'm working on my master's in Occupational Therapy...
Thanks for the kind words guys... if ya wanna shaere your stories go for it...it might make me feel less alone in it lol.

tkm256 · 03-26-2009, 10:09 AM

I'm just about to start my masters as well, and I'm freaking out about the loans. No one has offered me financial aid, so it looks like I'll be shouldering some $40k...how am I supposed to buy my low-fat soy milk and yummy Amy's no-cheese pizzas when I'm paying $500 a month to the government? Or find time to run when I'm logging in overtime and taking second jobs to stay afloat? I guess it's back to the basics: crock-pot soups and pretty new wardrobes from Goodwill.