I think it's safe to say I'm failing again at losing weight. I was doing well for about a minute.

I think I'm starting to fall back into that black hole of depression that I thought I pulled myself out of a few months ago.

But tonight I'm feeling lonely, anxious, stressed and I can't sleep.

In 5 1/2 hours I have to get up and start my day all over again. I don't feel like I ever do anything for myself. It's all work, and I get no support whatsoever there, not just in trying to lose weight, in general.

My mind is full of thoughts about a relationship that ended three months ago just as quickly as it started, albeit more painfully.

I just thought I was over all of this....and I needed to get that all out.

I'm sure all chicks will join me in saying that you can get support here. We all fall into that 'black hole' every once in a while but the trick is to try and bounce back and stick to your program.. Please share and we'll try and help/support you

Hey! We all go through these cycles and need the support. That's why 3FC is a great place. Weight loss alone is what we're dealing with. All the other stuff in life just makes it that much harder. I went through a breakup in October that was far from easy. So I know how you feel. Stay strong. I wish you much success and I hope you find the support you need here.

You will certainly get lots of support here- we all know what it's like to want to lose weight and we all get to celebrate successes and help when there's backsliding You can do it, you just have to know you can.

As for the breakup- I'm sorry you're going through a hard time, but think about yourself a year from now and how proud you'll be of all your accomplishments if you stick with it You can do it!!!!

Romance, we all have those nights. About three in seven nights of the week I go to bed happy...the others I'm stressed from school, frustrated by something or other in this crazy woyld, and achy from my workout, and say "That's it! Screw my future...tomorrow I'll just stop going to class. I'll stay home and eat pizza and ice cream. No one will care if I die early anyway." Then the morning comes and it doesn't seem so bad anymore, and I forget I ever made such silly plans.

If you feel like you never do anything for yourself, you should start! Splurge on some bubbles from Bath&Body, try a new hair color (I love the do-it-yourself temporary kind that washes out after a month--wonderful for such incidents as the brashy red disaster of '08), or hop on Facebook and look up old school friends or family members. Of course, if you're richer than me, your lift-me-up options are much less limited

We're rooting for you!

What I always remind myself when I'm feeling bad about not losing is that even people on the Biggest Loser gain some weeks, and that's ALL they do all day is try to lose weight, so if they can have an off week, I certainly can.

Try not to be too hard on yourself about it.

Do you have insurance to be able to see someone about your depression? If it's effecting your life this much I'd really suggest at least going to get evaluated.

Someone has a quote on here tat always resinates in my brain when I think I am falling again.

"The only true failure is one where you don't get up and keep trying..."
I think it has saved me more times than I can count.

Don't quit! Everything takes time, patience, a perserverance. We are all routing for each other here. Stand up and keep moving forward. Keep telling yourself it will happen for you!!!!!

You know what I've done before? I had a journal for me to record my weight loss ups and downs. Before I binged, I would write in that while sipping water. I would eventually feel so good about myself listing what I did well or writing, I WILL NOT GIVE IN, that I would not give in to whatever I was feeling. If I felt down, I could re-read a successful entry.

Thanks everyone for the support. It's really super helpful just to know I'm not alone, because sometimes no matter how many people are around you just can't help feeling that way.

I do have insurance and my gyno put me on Yaz because she didn't think it was too bad and it seems to always get worse just around my time of the month (which just happens to be now!) Trust me it has helped a lot. Two or three months ago I was crying every day. I'm getting there but the slips back really get me down, it's just so easy to focus on the negative.

But really thank you all for your responses, I'm tearing up that you all are so supportive and you really know nothing about me. I wish more people were so unselfish and giving.

Thank you!!