[sumu1]

Alright, so I know that I've come a long way. I'm down 31 lbs and I'm really happy about that but here's the thing... I went camping last weekend and my boyfriend took some video footage of me during a race. I did not look good at all. I didn't look "normal " sized. I looked like the chunky girl of the bunch. I know that the camera adds lbs but it was truely depressing. I mean I'm 5'5" and weigh 148 ( not overweight ) I wear a size 8-10 depending on the maker and yet I looked huge. I mean I can see the big difference from last year but I realized that I'm not done yet. I'm a small-med frame and 148 is too much weight on that frame I guess.

So here is the good news. I'm not getting down about it. This morning I decided that 128 would be a great goal to shoot for. It's still in the low-mid range for my height and I really want to exercise my way there. I found the Womens Olympic Marathon to be inspiring. I have no interest in being model thin...115 is out of the question... but I really just want to see a photo of me and not cringe :-).

I've been at this weight for a couple of months now and the last time I lost weight, I made it to 147 and then gained it all back. Not this time... the goal is 128 and I'm going to make it.

I know this was kind of a weird post but I felt dissapointed I didn't look better. I'm still not physically were I want to be. I'm not seeing more muscle than flab yet. I guess you have 2 choices, work harder or give up...

Thanks for listening...

[ghost]

I so feel your pain. Shorty's got it hard I'm telling you! We can weigh 100 lbs and still manage to look fat. For the record, I think you will look fabulous at a muscular 128. I lost 45 lbs and my before pic and after pic don't look that different. It can make you want to cry most days, but I just tell myself at least in the after pic I'm healthier.

[bellastarr]

Omg I did the same thing yesterday, looked at pictures and wanted to cry because i thought i didn't look that different. And sadly my night ended with a huge binge.

I also agree it sucks being short!

Good luck with your goal!

[sumu1]

Thanks for the replies...I felt weird writing it because I thought some might read it and think, " she lost 31 lbs, why is she complaining" or " geez, I would LOVE to be 148 lbs":-). Thank you for letting me know that I'm not crazy and not alone :-) !!

[BuuBuu]

everyone is here to cheer you on!

[cdiem4994]

Thanks for sharing. I am thinking it's only a matter of time (and weight loss!) before something similar happens to me. I'll be thinking of you when it happens.