It's the 6th of August.
I could have lost another 5 lbs
instead i gained what i lost.
I had lost 5 lbs
but ive gained 1 lb
and tonight i had a huge bowl of pasta with butter and cheese.
I will make sure i burn it off tomorrow at the gym.
I gotta keep on going, im just feeling really REALLY like a failure right now.
i need to come on here more often!!!!
anyone who is around 210 lbs and wanting to get to 130 MAIL me.
we need to help each other. )))))))

ps

http://www.myspace.com/emjtaylor


if anyone has myspace we can talk on there too!!
and yes, that is my music
hehe.

I always feel like a failure when I dwell on what I could have lost if I hadn't (insert mistake here). I lost my first 50 lbs in 2004/2005 between Oct and June. It's been 3 years and I am the same weight. In between, I put 40 lbs back on and hovered at 260 most of 2007. But now I'm back on track. It's important to keep the big goal in mind. Eating that pasta was a moment of weakness, but it also won't put 20lbs on. Like you said, head to the gym and work it off and erase it. When I want to eat something that I KNOW I shouldn't, I generally try to think of how I'm going to feel afterwards and that usually helps.

Plus, I have a scheduled bad day. Saturdays mornings, I weight in, get on the treadmill twice and dance around for a good hour and then I can eat whatever I want that night and not feel too bad about it.

just drop by to say I like your musics and voice, very nice voice. I've always love Gothic/Death Rock (within temptation, Nightwish, eternal tears of sorrow etc...). Good luck on your way of become a singer and losing weight Becoming your fan way to go

I am feeling the same way.

I feel like every time I try I end up failing.

I just can't get that motivation I need to stay focused and going.

I WANT to be thin again but I just can't find the willpower. I'd love a buddy!

Be my buddy! Im so lonely

As for the gaining weight, i always feel disappointed. But i always remember what the philosophy behind my martial art says (how cheesy!) that "the only time you are truely defeated is when YOU say "I am a bad person. I am a failure". And then i pick myself up and keep going. Cos no one else is going to do it for me

I know how you feel. I try to move on and tell myself that a small gain will not prevent me from losing the weight.

It's gets hard sometimes, but we're here for you!

EmJ, I know how you feel - I screw up on a regular basis. A lifetime of bad eating habits won't change overnight. We're still figuring all this out, and when we mess up, we need to recognize our mistakes, forgive ourselves, and move on.

You can do it! Just keep going!

Failure? Only like every day. Alright, perhaps not everday but on days where I've gained/ not moved. Most definitely. I feel like a failure now because I really wanted to lose around 15lbs this summer while home from school and I haven't moved. Don't get me wrong, I'm glad it hasn't moved up...I've just stayed the same which is annoying. Oh well...I lost my initial weight at school and I guess I will do the same. Thank goodness though that I'm leaving tomorrow. Hurray!

I used to come on this site like everyday and was doing great then kind of got comfortable and started cheating a bit, stopped counting calories, didn't feel like getting on the scale knowing it would be depressing and tada weighed in at 180... grrr! Now that I did some major damage I have to do some major damage control. It is so daunting to have to re-lose like 12 pounds. I can really only blame myself though at least I didn't gain back ALL of the weight I had lost... only half of it. So expect to be seeing me on here a lot more! Having accountability buddies also help me a lot so if anyone wants to have someone to report to daily please let me know! It's so nice to read all your responses to know I'm not alone.

Yeah the best advice I can give you is stop beating yourself up and just make a fresh start tomorrow. The most successful dieters have made dozens of fresh starts if not more. Beating yourself up over a bad couple of days won't do you any good at all.

I know how you feel. This is me... today. Lol. Yesterday I was down to 211, and today, back up to 214. I know what my issue was... it's called Wendy's and Movie Theater Popcorn. I will do better today, why? Because I want to.

This is me today, too. I had a couple of bad days, and I felt like giving up. But I won't do that! I can't. I've gotta keep going!

I feel like a failure because I keep plateauing at the exact same size and weight and I'm working out like crazy, eating very well, and I cannot break through it. *sigh*

i feel like that when it is not even my fault! I almost never cheat or go over my calories, and i do as much exercise as i should (at least a half hour every day)...and i have some weeks where i don't lose anything...and i get really pissed and dissapointed.