I was just getting to know you ladies, then I took a week and a half off from posting, and interestingly enough, I also ate like there was no tomorrow.
It all started after I got my new puppy. I work 12 hour nights, and I noticed before my first of 3 nights in a row that the puppy was not acting right. Lethargic, not eating, not playing, fever. I had to scramble to work, and I took him to the vet in the morning (there goes my sleep for the day, went to bed at 11am and had to get up to get DD off the bus at 2:30pm). I also hadn't gotten my good sleep the day before because of DD's checkup at the Dr. Turns out the puppy had kennel cough from the breeder's, that turned in to pneumonia. He was really sick for a couple days, and I really was afraid he was going to die.
Soo, whenever I'm severly sleep deprived, I am so starving. And I have this really bad habit of not just making the wrong choices, but really BINGING. Which I did. Then, just like the teeth-brushing thing, I was like, oh well, I'm so fat and I've just ruined it all, so I might as well just keep on eatin'.


Then I feel so run-down and exhausted, I just keep it going because I don't feel like getting out for fresh air, exercising, anything but sitting on the couch eating more. It's such a vicious cycle.
I feel really down about myself right now, and I thought maybe posting would help get me back on track. I was going to wait till I WAS back on track, but maybe that's backward thinking.
No wonder I'm where I am today. I try not to beat myself up, but it's so hard. I'm such a bad example for DD, and poor DH tries to support me, then sees me one day eat a whole pint of ben and jerry's in one sitting. He has no idea what to do for me. Ugh, I feel awful.
BTW, Simon the puppy is fine now!!