This week I had some Pretty awesome Epiphanies.
1. I've been pretty darn depressed being on the fibro drugs and pain killers (I'm a Go go go Girl (no fringe dresses or cage dancing tho! <YET>) I was Depressing myself out of getting stuff done that I want to accomplish. The other night I'm sitting exactly where I am now going through some work and sending out SEVERAL samples and I remembered
I'm Me and I'm Fricking Fabulous! Like Those V8 commercials where someone gets smacked in the forehead it was like DUH IDIOT REMEMBER YOU!!!
2. I have my followup appt with the WLS doc in April and I've been putting a lot of pressure on me to lose the last bit of my weight he wants me to lose. . .Now I went to a new NUT on Thursday he's an actual doctor and not a protein drink shiller and he basically said You've lost over 30% of your initial body weight you're doing Really remarkably well. I ofcourse responded inwardly with a hearty yeah right. Last night DH and I went to dinner with some friends. I hit the ladies room and was confronted with a full length mirror. Thank God I was the only one in there!! I stared at myself (we don't have full length Mirrors.) Whoever came in would have thought I was the vainest girl EVER!
I tend to See myself in my head as being a 12/14 my previous longest sustained smallest size range and I let out a Holy BEEP I'm Tiny TINY! So While yes I do want to tone up and I'm still going to work on melting my Adipous flesh (forever) I'm successful Dammit! I'm actually doing this and succeeding. It feels really good.
Now the continuing mission is to FINALLY Feel Good (fibro, anemia, the laundry list) On a side note Dr Nut is really good!!!! I'm going for a blood work fest next week and a gallbladder Sono to make sure Everything is kosher
Anyway I wanted to share with y'all
Ok off to clean!!!
Kier

