Hello my name is Daphne. I am 29. I currently weigh 240. I started at 255 and have lost 15 pounds over the past 1 1/2 years, not really doing much about it. But recently I have joined the ymca and I am trying to motivate myself to lose the other 90 pounds to get to 150. As of right now 150 is my goal but that could change because I dont know how I am going to look at 150 since I havent weighted 150 since I was like 11.

I have struggled with weight most of my life. But I always stayed around 180to 200. I broke up with my ex when I was 20 and I fell into depression and I wasnt eating, I thought that there was something wrong with me and if I lost weight then he would love me and come back because I didnt think that I deserved better. I lost about 30 pounds and was at 170. Then I met my husband 6 months after I broke up with my ex and he made me feel pretty and wanted. so after 6 months of not eating I went crazy and within less than a year I was up to 226.

We met in July 1998. We got married in July 2000. I joined WW in Sept 2000 lost about 20 pounds and then got pregnant and that was ANOTHER reason to eat. I gained 50 pounds and was 250 when I had my daughter. I lost 30 pounds within 3 months and was at 219 when I joined WW again in Sept 2001
I quit after 2 months. Then I tried atkins like 5 or 6 different times within then next 3 years. So then in Jan 2006 I went to the Dr cause we had been trying for a few years to have another baby and she weighed me and I weighed 255, 5 pounds more than when I had my daughter. I almost fainted. So she diagnosed me with Policystic Ovary Syndrome (PCOS). My body makes to much testosterone and I do not ovulate, which results to infertility and irregular periods. So I had to go through a whole bunch of tests and infertility treatments and nothing worked. She told me that I needed to lost weight and that would help. So I kinda ate right and I lost 15 pounds over the past 1 1/2 years. But Like I said earlier I have joined the Y and I have been trying to workout and eat right. I am doing WW from home. Well I am trying to. I have one good day and then 5 bad days follow.

I dont know what it is going to take for me to get motivated to workout and eat right. I was watching Oprah and there was a lady on there that was doing the Weight Loss Challenge with Bob Greene. And she said that she is tried of complaining about something that SHe has the power to change.

I have the power to change my life and yet I chose not to and I can not figure out why I keep sabotaging myself.

So that is why I am here. I am hoping that being able to talk with people that are in boat as me or used to be in the same boat, but have already lost the weight, will help.

Thanks...

Daphne

Welcome and good luck.
There is a PCOS support group.

Daphne! Yup, most, if not all, of us have been in the same boat. The PCOS makes losing weight even more of a challenge. There is a support forum for those with PCOS, if you're interested in that as well as this forum. You've already lost 15 lbs., and you've joined the Y, which is a great start.

For me, losing weight has taken a commitment rather than motivation because, for me, my motivation waxes and wanes. But I am committed to losing the weight, no matter how long it takes, and to maintaining the loss for the rest of my life. And this is a great place to find the support to do that.

"I was watching Oprah and there was a lady on there that was doing the Weight Loss Challenge with Bob Greene. And she said that she is tried of complaining about something that SHe has the power to change."

---That hit home for me.

I have the power to change my life and yet I chose not to and I can not figure out why I keep sabotaging myself.

---- This too. I am starting over again as well. I have been asking myself why all day. Why do I keep letting myself do this? I know it must lie more deeply than just liking the taste of junk food. It's time to dig out the skeletons. Eek!

Good luck, post often, and welcome to the board!

So glad to have you here, Daphne! It's a tough road, but you can do this. Stealing some wisdom I have gained from RockinRobin (who's much better at coming up with words of wisdom, so I feel no guilt about the theft), I would tell you that losing weight does not require motivation. It requires commitment. We all know how to commit. You have made a commitment to feed and nourish your child each day. Just make the same commitment to yourself to feed and nourish your body the best way you know how and to use the Y so frequently that they'll regret that they didn't charge you more for your membership.

Welcome! I look forward to reading about your continuing success!

Thank you so much for welcoming me. I have rejection fears. I am trying to work on that also. I have alot of issues that stem from my past of being sexually abused by my cousin and also dealing with issues from my dad who is had mental issues. Another thing that Oprah and Bob talked about was to be honest. I know that I eat because I have alot of issues that I need to work on. I just need to figure out how to deal with them in a different way instead of feeling sorry for myself and laying on the couch crying watching all these self help shows and eating doritos. Trying to figure out how to do it. I know how to do it. I am just very scared of opening up all these skeletons in my closet.

I never thought about it like that when you say commitment instead of motivation. I have all the motivation in the world. MY health, my daughter, my self. But none of that works. So I have to just do it and come up with a plan that works for me.

I have been to the PCOS forum. It only focuses on PCOS and babies. And yes I want another baby but first I want to be healthy and then if I get pregnant after that then so be it. And if I dont then I know that God will give me another baby and if he doesnt then I have come to terms with that too.

Welcome, Daphne! Great to have you here.

Hi there. I'm glad you found us. This is a great group. Very kind, helpful and supportive and full of great ideas.

Motivation is all fine and dandy. Really it is. There are hundreds and hundreds of resons to lose weight. But it is the determination and commitment to a better, healthier and hopefully happier life, full of less worries and more joy, that will take us to goal and then keep us there. Strength, commitment and determination. Very, VERY important. Make that commitment to yourself. You deserve it and you CAN do it. I know it for sure.

I look forward to hearing more from you. Good luck.

Welcome , Daphne. We're glad to have you here!

Welcome Daphne!
And, I have to thank you... I never knew what PCOS stood for or what it was before your post. I had seen it mentioned in the forum, but never took the time to look it up or google it.

This is an awesome place to be perfectly honest. Everyone is supportive.

Glad you're here!

Welcome Daphne AWESOME name by the way!!!

I'm 40 and I feel like I've been on a diet for 20 years LOL, and one thing I've learned is that what works for one person may not work for the other. I guess the thing for all of us is to find that one special "click" moment where the lightbulb goes on and it sticks!

I find I always do better when I stick around this board and don't avoid it just because I've gone "off target". The accountability, motivation, kind words and the success of others is a great motivater

Good luck, and all the best.

Hi Daphne!!! Welcome!!!

Welcome Daphne!!!

WOW..... Thank you so much. I have been on 3fatchicks for a few months and I have been on another support group and I felt like an outcast. When I posted stuff I would get one or two responses but here. WOW.... I feel so welcomed. I look forward to getting to know each of you better. Thanks again.

I saw that show too on Oprah, and I agree with alot of things Bob said. I think it is possible, but it takes determination, and accountability. There are a great bunch of people here, supportive and friendly.
Good luck with your goals.
cheryl