Great Question, one that I have been struggling with for awhile. I have had to come to the realization that I am totally powerless, no control, over food. Once I start eating things that I know I shouldnt then there is no stopping. When I read the 12 steps and traditions and I read that people have tried diets, pills, formulas, even surgery to lose weight and these things dont work, then we need to know that we have a disease.
I am beginning to realize that no matter what I try to do, I will never be able to eat like a "normal" person. I have tried. It has been through reading and testing myself like the big book says to do to see how out of control my eating can get.
Powerless for me has been a good thing, because it has helped me realize that I have a disease, and there is recovery, I am not hopeless because there are tools that I can use to keep my disease under control. I no longer have to walk around wondering why I am the way I am, now I have a way to keep it under control. I am greatful today because I am powerless because it has led me to where I need to be in my recovery.
Sorry for rambling
Denise