Carol, Your post came at a good time. I woke up this morning and was just ticked off!!! Nothing I put on felt decent. I was just angry at being heavy and wanted to say phooey on the whole thing and crash diet. Of course then I remembered that I have never lost weight on any of those diets, so that was out of the question.
Recently I have been so accepting of myself. This morning I was a "@itch" with a capital B!!! (Luckily just to myself and not to others.) ARGHHHHH!!!!! I don't know what the problem was, but I am still feeling sort of crappy.
At lunch I almost bought a candy bar. I actually wanted some mints but the vending machine didn't have any. I wanted something crunchy and my dollar bill was burning a hole in my pocket. I would have bought a heath bar, but the vending machine was out of change. I must not have wanted the candy bar too bad because I didn't hunt anyone down for any change.
This afternoon we had a faculty meeting after school. THey had mini candy bars and little bags of goldfish on the table. I was so hungry, I ate my share of the mini candy bars and 2 bags of goldfish (and I really don't like goldfish). I was hungry, and usually would go home and eat. I didn't eat carefully or consciously though. I shoved it down as fast as possible.
I am happy to say I came home and had a reasonable dinner. I will go to bed early and kick this mood of mine out the window.
Not every day will be perfect, but with reflection my food today was totally horrible. In the past I would have said, "I blew my diet with the snacks. I might as well go out and stuff myself at dinner." Today I was able look into my eating and let it go.