I'm still alive everyone Reading every day, posting a little.
Just having a tough time with life in general and I feel like I'm in a bit of a funk right now.
This is getting so old!!!
Things are so strained between Rudy and I... I'm going through a time right now where I realize how much I give and how little is returned to me relationship wise. We've got communication issues so although it would be easy for me to come right out and tell him how I feel...the resulting ice storm, and silence and turmoil is sometimes just not worth it.
My Mom is staying here right now until they're done putting the final touches on her new house (a couple of weeks or so) The whole tree incident in January is what set my entire backslide in motion...losing my childhood home, not to mention possibly losing my kids AND my Mom (lucky me that they're safe)
I was supposed to have made it to my goal by now, this was going to be my first summer thin....however, I have now managed to put myself about ten pounds less than when this all started in April 05, ten pounds in 15 months...when I had been at 40 lost.
I'm completely bummed, probably actually depressed and I have this feeling of, " So what....what difference will it make anyway?" I don't want to feel like this, and I HATE whining about it.
Love you guys
Linda