These last couple of weeks have been rough. I lost my abstinence to sugar
but I did at least keep my abstinence to overeating. I let my period and emotions get to me. Last night I was feeling really bad and my husband made the comment "It is like you have been poisoned". Wow ~ that said it all. I HAVE been poisoned and I did it to myself.
I have done some really stupid things these last couple of weeks, including smoking a few cigarettes to try and get rid of some of the cravings that I have had - cravings that have returned because I used sugar again. Stupid, stupid, stupid - both the sugar and the cigarettes.
I am having a little outpatient surgery in the morning and will be pretty out of it for about three days. I am considering this a blessing and an opportunity to rid myself of all this trash again, but the meds are going to make it much easier this time.
I think I have my head back on straight now and am ready to move forward... back on the program full force, working the steps, and USING those tools!
