Thanks so much for all the stories,and personal history w/ lawl,,,It seems you are doing wonderful..all of you. The money issue is an issue,I won't deny that..It's not that I don't think I'm worth it,because I really do..It's just that I gave a weight loss program over $700. a couple of yrs.ago,and it seemed the seven hundered plan was be hungry all the time..900 calories leaves me hungry!..and I can do that without paying..needless to say i hardly lost any,and what I did lose came back as soon as I allowed myself to go off 900c's a day. After that, I'm really cautious..I did join a gym,and I do go weekly,but even tho I'm getting stronger,and more flexible and healthy in that respect..I'm still toting this extra baggage that I don't need. I'm a 'older',(but goodie)woman,who has lost a great deal of weight in my mid thirties,and kept it off for almost 20yrs. Then menopause arrived..gee what a number that can do to a metabolism,then I had debilitating surgery,and was out of commission for 6months, THEN, I did one of the best things I've ever done for myself and quit smoking
..(yea!)my point is after all these events I put on an additional 15lbs. Even tho I was eating healthy alot of the time, I wasn't burning it off..and still am not,not like I use to. Now I've got myself in abit of a jam..lots to lose,and I weigh more than I've ever weighed in my life..by 40 pounds! I am embarrased,and ashamed of myself,which i've never shared with anyone,much less people I don't know.(yet) But it feels good to say it out loud...I've felt it so long,but of course would never SAY it. I want more for myself than this, I deserve more,and I need to learn to address my emotional issues without using food as a fix..although I can be perfectly happy,and still enjoy good food...but when I'm not so happy..food takes some of the sting away. Best end this first chapter of my novel..sorry for going on and on. I'll keep up with you as the days progress,and let you know if/when I'm a l.a.weightwatcher. 1(healthy)life~