I'm stuck on step two...
Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity
This is tough for me, not because I have an issue with this disease being out of my control, or that I have an issue with myself lacking sanity. But merely the Higher Power is my conflict. It's been so long since I've had any faith at all that this step is a bit tough for me.
Tonight at my meeting, a gentleman said "If only I had faith in the higher power like I do in this flimsy folding chair. There is never a doubt in my mind that this chair will hold me, I just plop myself down with never failing belief."
Perhaps I just need to reach out a bit further, and meditate on it myself... if only I had that unwaivering faith. But I'm willing to at least search for it, and that in itself is progress.
I'm proud of myself, I opened up and shared for the first time tonight. I've been sitting in the back at meetings, just observing and digesting my thoughts. Speaking with people after the meeting. But tonight, I shared!