All the excuses in the world won't make the fact that I've been screwing up any easier to handle. No excuse in the world will hide the fact that I HAVE to get a control of what's going in my mouth. I can make all the excuses in the world for why I'm eating the way I am...and why I have to wait to re-start Atkins WOE.....but the only reason that would be TRUE is that I've NO (zippo, zilch, nadda, none) willpower. Just the HINT of anything off plan and I'm all for it. Whatever happened to the way I was when I first started this WOE. Any offer of junk would get a firm no. No hesitation, no 2nd thought. But now? Hmph! I can't keep doing this to myself. I fully admit I'm a carb-addict. As an addict....how come I can't control THIS like I did when I quit smoking? True, quitting smoking wasn't easy, either. But I did it. How come I can quit smoking (an addiction) but can't quit eating junk carbs (another addiction)?
I was making the excuse that I couldn't start Atkins (cut out the junk food) this week because DH would be off work, we'd be out fishing and I'd have to have something easy (junk food in bags) to snack/eat while out there. I made the excuse that on Friday oldest DD and her other Girl Scout in her troop, her mom and I are going to a hotel waterpark for the night. So it didn't pay to start then. Or the excuse that on Saturday there's the baseball game so of course couldn't start until after that.
But you know....the excuses are JUST GOING TO GO ON AND ON. What next? The girls graduation (should I mention the oldest is 13?). What excuse would I come up with next?
So decided TODAY was the day to start over. The only thing I'll have to re-work into the "schedule" is water and exercise. I figure....one thing at a time Thanks for letting me vent/rant/expel my thoughts.