I don't get it. What's wrong with me?
I've been avoiding exercising lately because I really, truly HATE it. I was good for a few months. I kept trying to convince myself how "good" it was for me. I kept telling myself that I could "learn" to like it. It never happened. I was not able to fool myself. I hated it as much (maybe more) after a few months as I did when I started. As a result, I've fallen into avoidance mode in the past month. Why? Because I get absolutely NO joy from exercise at all. NONE. I absolutely HATE IT.
I've done everything I can think of to make it more enjoyable. I've done everything I can think of to eliminate the excuses. I don't have to deal with driving to/from or working out in public gyms (and all the nastiness that can be there), because I set up a bona-fide home gym in the basement. I have a TV, DvD player and IPod station down there. I have a big fan to evaporate some of the sweat. And I still HATE it and do everything in my power to avoid working out.
Even just going for a walk is pointless. If I have no destination, why go? I live too far from anything to walk to it. I'd rather drive anyway because I actually enjoy driving and I can get there (wherever "there" is) in the shortest time possible. And I don't have to take a shower after.
I think that's a big part of my avoidance. No matter what I do for "exercise", I always have to follow it up with a shower. It just seems like such a big waste of time. That, and the fact that I see no immediate, tangible results from exercise. No whopping 3, 4, 5 pound loss the day after. Perhaps if the scale visibly moved as a direct result, I'd be more inclined. Whether you agree with this or not, the scale is my motivator, since all my health indicators are already normal (and always have been).
To all of you who feel so great afterwards, to you who just LOOOOOVE to exercise, I just don't understand. All I ever feel after exercise is hot, tired and nasty-sweaty. None of those are good feelings to me. Do you actually like feeling like that?
What's wrong with me? Why don't I like it?
The whole concept of exercise puts me in an incredibly foul mood.