I am soooo upset with myself. I don't know what to do. I've been the chunky girl all my life. Even in high school when I was 140lbs and an active teen I was thicker than the other girls, so I was always label as "the fat one."
At 30 years old, I'm still "the fat one." At work when someone describes people, I'm the "fat one". In my family, again I'm the "fat one." I have had plenty of time to whip my "fat one" behind in shape, but don't. I'll lose a few pounds, but then I gain it right back. In the past when I was successful with weight loss it was because I was either working 3 jobs & had no time to eat or I was so depressed, that I didn't care if I ever ate again.
I'm embarassed, and disgusted with myself. I know my mother's weight helped her to an early grave and I don't want to die at 52! But I feel like I'm lost, like I have no idea how to get this digusting, nasty fat off my body.
I'm educated, have a well paying job, a fiance that loves me...I'm blessed but at the same time I'm incredibly sad.