Good morning Turtles! I hope Ariana and Princess find our new thread.
Yesterday was lovely, I spent the day mostly in bed, for various reasons.
I made myself crepes with Nutella (chocolate hazelnut spread, it's like chocolate peanut butter) a couple of times during the day, and then hubby took me and my mom (dad's off job interviewing in Dallas) to Claim Jumper for a birthday "cake" (dessert). The experience was...enlightening?
I've been eating very very clean and very very natural foods for a few weeks now, so much so that apples are starting to be very very sweet (they didn't seem so, before). My body tolerated the crepes with Nutella, so I thought it would be okay with dessert, too. What can I say, it was my birthday, and in my silly mind I thought I was giving myself a 'present' by relaxing my 'food rules' for the day.
Dessert was...an experience. I ordered lemonade (I don't drink caffeine after 4pm, or else I won't sleep through the night) and it was make-your-mouth-pucker sour. I couldn't drink it. My brownie was very, very floury. It seemed dry, somehow. It tasted like flour, I don't know any other way to explain it. Hubby got half slices of two different cheesecakes, and I tried a bite of each. They were AWFUL! It was shocking, they were so SOUR! Ugh, I was horrified. My mom got an apple pie thing with ice cream, and I ate the apples out of the middle--the crust it came in was WAAAAAY too floury for me to handle. It was such a strange taste experience, Turtles! I'd been abstaining for so long, looking forward to my birthday treat, and I wanted...the apples? How strange!
I got home--having had no vegetables, only the apple in mom's pie, and the protein in the two eggs in the crepes as my "good choices" for the day and the rest of my food being carbohydrate and sugar--and felt HORRIBLE. My stomach felt full and empty at the same time. It was like...I was technically full, but I was in no way satisfied. I did NOT like that feeling!
I wrote it all out--everything I was feeling, everything my body was going through, all my disappointment, why I had thought it would be a "treat" to eat that way, everything--and put it in a journal entry that I will refer back to when I start to forget. Eating that way was NOT a treat!
This morning I feel better. I woke up hungry, and I fixed myself eggbeaters with half an ounce of strong English cheddar cheese. My body is busy digesting right now, but I feel like it's working the way it's supposed to. I very much believe in natural foods.
So there you are, Turtles. I've learned my lesson, and I'm trying to make it stick! Hope you all are doing better than I was, but sometimes I guess it takes a hard lesson, huh?