Today offically makes 1 month of working out consistently. I have a track record of quitting when depressions or overwhelming situations occur. So I'm logging in here to head off the upcoming emotions. I have to go through a trial this month. One of DD was assulted by a family member last year.This led to smoking, weight gain and lots of sleeping on the couch. I was an emotional wreck and my whole life seemed to be upside down. I began to get uncomfortable with my weight again and started working out in December. I haven't quit smoking just yet, I'm using the trial as an excuse. Sometime after the trial I will set a target date for that. For right now I would like to be able to continue on the day I know I won't feel like it. I was to talk it out now before it gets bad, get some strategies on fooling my emotions so that I can stay on track. I have 100 lbs to lose and I won't lose it if I keep stopping to take 2-3 year emotional breaks. This is the first time I am aware of myself and taking action to prevent a slip. A friend of mine often uses the analogy of brushing teeth, we brush our teeth even when we feel bad and excercising and eating right has to be like brushing my teeth. Even when I feel bad I have to keep going. Any comments are welcome.

Ruthie

Hey Ruthie - my only comments are words of admiration for you!

CONGRATS on the 1 month of consistent exercising

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HOORAY FOR YOU doing all of this for yourself in the midst of terrrible circumstances! It sounds like you are more than on the right track and that you are setting yourself up to succeed.

I cannot imagine the pain and emotions involved in having a child assaulted by anyone - especially a family member. I think that if smoking is the only negative coping mechanism for dealing with the trial then you are indeed a very strong woman and I admire your strength!

I have been thru medical struggles with my oldest son, so I think I understand a very little of the emotions you might be dealing with concerning your child. I know it is probably nothing like dealing with abuse but I do know what it is like to hurt for your children!

Just want you to know that I admire your strength and that I will be praying for you and your family.

Keep talking and why not join us on the daily thread - it might help you stay on track also - you can either chat or if you want to be accountable to someone, you can do that there too.

hugs,
Cathy

Your on the right track Ruthie and you have me rooting you on

Well done on the first month of success!