I am starting over at PI for the 500th time tomorrow. Since the first I have been living on chocolate and goodies and have managed to get to an all time high of 290. Managed to drop 1.5 of that.
My family is no help with all of their constantly putting things in front of me that I am not supposed to eat. I am thinking this time I will just ask them not to fix any foods for me. I will do my own. I don't know what else to do. One week into this my mom will bring me breakfast cookies which still have starch, they are healthier than regular cookies and might be okay for P2 but...then the dil is always bringing sweets over or to work. DH just doesn't get it all the time either, he will bring me lobster fettucini just a smaller portion and think that is okay. So I know they aren't stuffing it into my mouth, I am, however, it does make it that much harder and I am a people pleaser so I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings. God forbid that I stop hurting myself.
I am afraid if I don't do it this time that I never will and that I will be unhealthy and fat until I finish killing myself with food. Please say a prayer for me.