Wow, so two things happened to me in the last few days that I have had to overcome...first my husband upset me (doesn't happen often but when it does, oh boy!) and second I was just having a very tough day all the way around (kids, work, etc). Ladies let me tell you, on both occasions all I wanted to do was EAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Eat, eat, eat, eat, eat!!!!! All I wanted to go was stuff my face because I KNEW it would make me feel better. It would grab that aggrivation and just gobble it up like I gobbled it up! It was overwhelming. I just wanted to fill myself, make all my problems go away. I really can't quite explain it. I kept thinking about this book I read called "A Million Little Pieces" that deals with drug & alcohol addiction and how those feelings were so accurately described in the book. Now don't get me wrong, I do not completely compare the two. I certainly would rob or kill someone for a Krispy Kreme...but you get the picture And you know what becuase I resisted I was just mad mad mad. Pissed off even. I was down right nasty and unpleasant to be around
BUT I DID RESIST!
Yes, I did. And today, after I watched Madagascar with my daughter, Hailey and we were dancing around...I remembered why. As we were laughing and smiling and dancing around the room THAT feeling was WAY better than the feeling I would have TEMPORARILY gotten stuffing my face. I know that those "comfort temtations" are going to come again...strong and when I least expect them but if I just HOLD ON & maybe remind myself of that moment dancing with my daughter when I normally would have SAT...maybe I can make it through again. I realize that it won't make that "comfort temtation" moment all warm and fuzzy and I'll probably be pissed off all over again, but if I just HOLD ON. Hold on and NOT put that food in my mouth; even if I am crabby, but I don't put that food in my mouth then I survived that moment.
I just wanted to share that experience. I don't know if anyone else can relate but I wanted to share...
Here's to all of you that danced when you could have sat!!!
Keep on keeping on...
Em