This is related to weight loss- the journey of weightloss. It seems kind of silly but I just want to get it out.
I have been dressing better, making sure to look extra nice everyday. I wear makeup everyday but I've been putting more care into and putting on base and bronzer and eyeliner, I'm usually wearing lipstick and mascara only.
A few weeks ago I saw a pic of myself and I have a crease that is vertical on my forehead and goes towards my nose. It just looked so prominent so I cut my hair with bangs in it. I did this because I don't want to go for botox just yet
I've been going to the gym and although I'm not perfectly following the diet I've been doing decent and I feel better and clothes fit better.
Okay, so here's the story. I'm sitting in the car this a.m. and my dh(?) is saying you look very nice today, you makeup looks good...then he says and your bangs? they look great makes me feel like giving myself a prep roll. (for those that don't know a prep roll is an 80's style of rolling up your pants) I was astonished, embarrassed and just felt stupid all at once. I said 'What are you trying to say' and he said 'don't worry they're coming back in style' so now its even worse. And its not just that it is so much more and maybe since it came from the man I love it hurt 10x worse than it should have. Its like no matter what he says my feelings were hurt pretty bad. I explained that I have no self esteem so even if it was a joke, it hurt, and I don't know how you want me to take that.
I guess its not just about the bangs, its everything rolled into one- I have a dang crease on my forehead I'm trying to cover with bangs and now my bangs make me look silly apparently. I start thinking I have my weight to deal with and its all external but it bugs me so bad. I feel like now its like oh look at the big girl with mall bangs. By the way they aren't mall bangs and I thought they looked good until today.