Hi! My name is Guin and I'm new posting on this forum. First, a short explanation of my nick.......I was Guinevere in long ago chat rooms, and I met my husband, Gandalf, 8 years ago in chat. When we married, well, we became Guindalf!
Over the last few weeks I've been fighting the monster that has hounded me my whole life, particularly since puberty....which is a LONGGGGG time ago.
That monster is living with being overweight and being obsessed with food, thinking about food, planning food, wanting food, fighting food, hating food, loving food, etc., etc., etc. I'm SURE you know what I mean. I'm waking up at 4:00 a.m. and thinking.....how can I lose weight today? When will I mess up? I should exercise....no, I don't FEEL like it. And on, and on, and on.
Nothing ever changes. I've tried and failed at it all. I don't believe the line that such and such a diet doesn't work. They all work. I just quit! I've done WW, Tops, Atkins, Sugar Busters, Slim Fast, and on and on.
And so I just stopped. I just stopped fighting, crying, screaming, failing. I've just stopped. I no longer want to set huge goals that I cannot meet; I no longer want to fight the monster.
I WANT A NEW LIFE. I want a lifestyle change.
Now I know that I cannot make lifestyle changes over night even with lots of supporters. What I can do is step out and start on a quest. A lifestyle quest. A Quest to change my life, my thinking, my goals.
And so, here is Guindalf.....stepping out on her lifestyle quest. And I need LOTS of supporters to make this extreme makeover happen.
Anyone want to hike along with me on my quest???
My first step in life changes.....exercise. I've started on the treadmill yesterday and today for 20 minutes.
And so in giving up the "fight" and taking a deep breath, I take one small step on this one day and yell to the sky........
I'm Guindalf!!!! And I'm on my way!!