Oh jeez, I don't know what to feel right about now. I've been so excited about dropping 10lbs and I haven't had chips in about 2 months... until tonight... Past 6 when I've told myself I shouldn't eat! I've been having quite a few emotional days and today REALLY sucked! Well, I suppose it started yesterday... I fell asleep at 5am on Sunday morning and woke up at 8:22am... 2h and 22min of sleep... then I was up until 5am this morning!!! I woke up at 10 to take my pills but that was about all I could do so I dragged my sorry butt back to bed. I woke up at 2pm today... and I thought "Hmm, I should really eat something today" but I wasn't hungry so I didn't... then when I made myself a sandwich I took a bite and almost threw up... I couldn't stand eating anything and I don't know why either... so I settled for a glass of water. By 7pm I was snacking on peanut butter crackers after having a fight with my fiance... wow that was fun... (and it's even harder because he's a friggin' world away in England) and anyway... I finally ate because my stomach started to eat itself... but then I wanted chips... yup... chips. So what did I do? Got my mom to go to the store with me and get some chips and I proceeded to eat half a bag of them and have a drink with my mom.
Now, I'm sort of upset but I am really proud of the fact that it was the first time I really gave in to what I wanted. I know I'll keep losing weight because I'm not giving up on that... but one bad night can really ruin a persons mood.
Sorry, had to complain for a bit there...
