You know, I get on my bike and I feel like my buttocks swallow up the seat. It is not that it is uncomfortable for me the seat is just fine. No, my embarrassment is that I am sure it is must be a mighty darn eye sore for anyone approaching from behind. However, I have managed to convince myself that it really doesn't matter what I look like as much as it matters what I am doing to take care of my body. That in and of itself is a big achievement for me, but I continue to fall back into old thinking sometimes. I continue to put myself in situations that are awkward initially but good for me.
So, here it is - me on a bike. I am riding my with little ones for fun and activity. The new male top-notch, fitter than fit, cuter than cute cop that I have just welcomed into my neighbourhood just happens to be driving up my street (yes, behind me) as I venture out. I always leave the house with the tiny prayer of "Dear God, please don't let me run into anyone I know". Usually, I am lucky but not today. So, after I do the friendly wave I turn around to my darling daughter who is riding just a little way behind me and ask (stupid move) "Honey, how does Mommy look from behind when she is on her bike?" My little one in all her beautiful mom-taught honesty says "Just horrible Mommy, but - it is not about how you look, it is about what you are doing for your body". How about that? Out of the mouth of babes. Who cares how it looks, do it for yourself.
I did have fleeting thoughts of - gee, I wonder what this gentleman thought. I do hope it was something like "good for her, she is out there and getting fit". However, I think it was probably more like "good golly, was it a plane, a train? No, my god, it was a big wide a**". Oh, the humiliation of it all. I must say though, I have had so many good giggles over this with my friends. We have gotten into all sorts of story telling of awkward or embarrassing moments, and it almost has made this embarrassing situation worth it. But geez, couldn't it have been the guys wife??? Anyway, gotta run. I am off for a bike ride and I don't care who I see (I do, but maybe if I keep telling myself this someday I won't!!).