Hm. Looks like I'm the first one here this month!
Well chicks, I seem to have found my path again, for the most part. Weekends are harder for me than weekdays, but hopefully now with at least some pathetic little income (which is better than none at all, yes?) I'll be able to afford to have better food around the house.
I'm going to go ahead and post what I put in last month's thread before I realized it was a new month.
Chicks - C'mon. You know there are a lot of different body types. You know not everyone can even begin to weigh in at 110-120, even if they're the same height as the more slender counterpart.
Bones have a lot to do with it, muscle mass and how much you are genetically predisposed to have has a lot to do with it... pure genetics plays a huge role in what your body type is. That is why I HATE the stupid number games the "health professionals" play with our minds. As an extreme example, when I was in my 20s and a powerlifter on the University of Alaska team, I weighed in at close to 170. I'm 5'3" tall. I wore a size 9. Last August, I weighed 172, I'm still 5'3", and I wore a size 14. All because yes, I was lifting, but not like an athlete training for competition. I was carrying a HUGE amount of muscle around on me then.
I know, those are extreme examples, but it illustrates why I tend to use the scale only as a barometer, if you will, of what I'm doing. I very loosely set weight goals, because it is something you can actually post. Something tangible people can see. And I have a rough idea of what weight range I think I might need to be in. But the scale and the numbers are not really my goal. The size of my clothes, the fact that I'll be able to run 5 or 10 K, the fact that I can work under horses trimming feet all day long, or beat my son and daughter at arm wrestling... those are my real measurements of success.
Derry - Each day (****, sometimes each minute) we have to define what is more important to us. Eating something yummy without regard to our physical appearance, health, etc. or losing weight and getting fit. There are always going to be times when the eating wins out. You cannot lose weight until you are ready to do so. That is why my sigline is what it is. If you are not mentally prepared to do what you need to do, you simply will not do it. And there are going to be times when you simply do not have the resources to think about losing weight.
One of the big issues with my journey has been trying desperately to condition myself to eat right without thought. I've gotten much better about it, but I still struggle. I get very, very tired of having to measure, weigh, count --- I just want to fix food and eat it. But 40+ years of eating too much of the wrong foods is not an easy thing to change. I'm more likely now to reach for a glass of water when I'm thirsty than eat ice cream. Don't laugh, your brain can trick itself into thinking allllll sorts of things. It took me a long time to realize that when I was craving ice cream, jello, fruit - my body was TRYING to say I'M THIRSTY!!! I'm more likely now to reach for a bowl of grain cereal for breakfast, or eggs, now instead of pancakes. But you know, I still crave chocolate after dinner. And I'm not ready to cut that off yet. Maybe one of these days. For now, I just try really hard to limit it to one serving and budget it into my day.
Ok... I'm sorry, I rambled on. I guess I'm just trying to say that yes. There are many different body types. And just like I tell my daughter - you will never, ever be a skinny little slip of a girl. It's simply not genetically possible. But you can be very proud that you can lift three of those slips over your head if you so desire.