Hi, Amber!
I am so sorry that you have been struggling with the diet. I understand your pain. Did you make it through Phase 1 the first time? I found that making it through Phase 1 makes me feel like I don't want to cheat and find myself back there again! It keeps me from cheating. Are you trying to find other things to do to deal with your emotions besides eating? I've put in a system of rewards for myself (a charm bracelet--I play with the charms when I am bored or stressed, the sound of them helps remind me why I am doing this, and the charms themselves are of things I want to do when I am thin and what is helping me through this journey) that has a lot of other functions and is helping. My DH and coworkers know that I'm on the diet, and they are supportive and help me stay OP. I have given away most of the non OP food in the house with the exception of ingredients like sugar and flour and mixes that I figure I might use to make goodies to give to others, so I have very few, if any, temptations in the house. These things have helped me be successful.
I have to admit that emotional eating is a big problem for me too. I haven't really found a great way to deal with it, but I'm taking it one day at a time. I am trying to get my emotions out in other ways. Have you tried journaling? Calling a friend? Painting or singing to music? Going for a long walk? Immersing yourself in a good book? What things do you enjoy that don't have to do with food? Find ways to do them! And find foods on the diet that you like. Check out the recipes in the forum and check out
www.cookinglight.com and other recipes sites on the web like
www.allrecipes.com. You can do this, Amber...and we're here to help and support, okay?
I will keep you in my prayers. Keep us posted on how you are doing. And remember Ruth's quote...you've only failed if you don't get up again. You're getting up and so you are a success!