Oh gee, where do I start? I am 53, about 5'9", and quickly closing in on 300 pounds. I have no idea how to stop this crazy eating. As long as I can remember I have used food to anesthesize myself against the pain of a life full of abandonment, rejection and abuse.
I just finished dinner awhile ago. Two fast food sandwiches, a large fry and a sugary pop. I just added up the calories in this one meal - 1680, and 75 grams of fat. Why am I kiling myself with food? This is slow suicide. I don't understand myself - I love veggies, and fish, and I love to exercise. So why am i doing this to myself? If I don't stop I'm going to die, and die horribly - diabetes or heart attack or stroking out and spending the rest of my life in a wheelchair unable to wipe my own butt. I had an uncle who was fat, and had a stroke at 49, and he lived 40 years trapped in a unless body. I'd sooner die.
Please can someone who has conquered this demon offer me some support? I don't even know where to begin.