Hi Everyone, I am new here. I am a 32 year old mother of a toddler who I love more than life itself. I have PCOS and depression and am a military spouse. I recently moved to a new city and have no support system here yet.
My son and I take public transportation each morning to his preschool and my office. At least twice a week we have an extremely negative encounter with someone (they've all been men, so far) who mocks my weight or general appearance, or says something negative about my son. In essence, someone who wants me to know that it is unacceptable to them, for me to be out in public.
Today two men laughed *hysterically* about my "disgusting ***" for the entire train ride. I calmly asked them who they were laughing at. They wouldn't respond, and instead laughed even harder. Many people saw this happen, no one interjected. I was too shocked and hurt to even think clearly. I should have left the train car, but I was mortified.
I cannot take much more of this. I felt like calling a suicide hotline when I reached work this morning, but reconsidered. Has anyone ever experienced anything like this? I'm starting to feel pretty hopeless. This is probably traumatizing my son, and I feel like it is my fault, for not being able to lose weight easily, like my friends did, after they had their children.