This is just a bit of a rant. I have a lot of trouble with keeping my home stocked with enough food. What happens when I don't is I just don't eat until it becomes a pressing problem. And when it does, the natural instinct is to go for something with a high caloric density. And then when I do shop I often can't eat all the food before it goes bad (vegetables and fruit) and I really hate it. So then I don't buy fruit and veggies and really miss it, it actually sometimes makes me want to stop eating if I'm not getting enough fresh food. And then... I go hungry and go eat stupid stuff that's not good for me.
I devised a meal plan that doubles as a shopping list for my weight loss attempt in the hopes that it will help. But several times already I found out I don't have the things for any of my pre-planned meals and no time to shop and it made for a day of pretty bad eating, turning to quick and bad solutions, totally unnecessary. I'm just bad at running my own kitchen, it seems.
It used to be a lot worse, though. A few years back when I started living independently I would come home dead-tired and hungry after not really eating anything much that day, looked through the pantry and the only thing I was able to do with what I found was something like a porridge made out of flour, sugar and water. If I was lucky, there was cinnamon. I called it "glue". Later I learned that if I bake it, it tastes a lot better and I don't need the sugar (and it warms up the apartment, very useful in winter. I actually got into the habit of big cooked dinners even if they're uncommon here because the heating couldn't keep up with winter nights and I was forbidden to use electric heaters. Takes comfort food to a whole new level ), but still...
I don't know, I find it really distressing to see the food disappearing, especially fresh stuff that takes up a lot of space. I also find the cost of food quite steep - buy little things here and there, that's OK, I don't see that adding up, but a huge bulk of actual food, perhaps for 3 or even 5 days? That really feels expensive...