Same ol', same ol' here with me. Exercise = good, Food = bad. I'm not sure what's up with that? Previously in life I've started exercising and I've made sure to make the right food choices to fuel my exercise and not ruin my fitness efforts by indulging. A part of me thinks maybe I should start weighing again to keep me accountable, but I know I'll feel glum if I see the number stay the same. The other part of me thinks that I should treat my exercise as damage control while I'm living in someone else's house with loads of treats around and really start my weight loss up again when I move out. I almost feel like the latter is cheating in a way? I guess not though, I am doing well with exercise and I should be proud of that. I would be disappointed if I saw no change in weight after the 10K is finished but then again I couldn't really be that shocked considering my eating habits these days.
I feel like I'm living 2 lives, one where I come on here and say "what the heck? why did I do that?" and another that says "I'm hungry, just eat all the carbs they're yummy who cares!!" I'm sure you guys are getting fed up of hearing all this, I'm like a broken record that's been on a loop for the past 2 years. I suck, I'm sorry guys
. You know on Facebook when it says "here's what you did X years ago?" I saw pictures of a trip to Seoul and I was 165 lbs then and that was 2 years ago. Made me feel like crap in all honesty. I know I shouldn't give myself such a hard time since that won't inspire change, but it really did suck seeing that. Still got my big stomach and a chubby face when I want to be lean and healthy.
Anyway, enough doom and gloom. I think I will treat the next couple of months as a maintenance and then when I move to Atlanta I'll have no more reasons to not eat healthy. I'll be living with my BF, I'll be in charge of all the shopping and meal plans and we won't have the money to go out to eat multiple times a week like we do now. Right now I need to focus on hydrating*, eating as good as I possibly can** and exercise.
*I have been SO bad with water in the last week. This morning I started to feel so drained a crappy and my head was aching. Gotta remember to hydrate!
** I know from experience I don't do well with temptation around me, however I can't use that as an excuse to eat poorly. I need to make the right choices and sometimes I might slip up but that's ok. Just need to do my best until I have 100% control of my own kitchen!
Sorry for the mega vent! Worked out a few kinks in the process of writing this.
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NNS - Good luck with keeping on plan, you can do it! Think of that 5K and the delicious FroYo that awaits as a reward!
dayoneagain - Congrats on feeling pumped to be healthy!
Penny - That's so nice of you to help, I'm sure she really appreciates it. I'm so happy to hear that you're not feeling the stresses of weight loss loom over you and you're enjoying maintenance. I hope I can join you in that mindset very soon. You're so right...weight loss can be stressful and feel a little all-consuming. Yup, I think it might snow today as well! Now that Christmas is gone I'm done with snow too, but I must admit I did have fun building a snow man