Mostly depressed.
Hi. I was on here maybe two years ago, going on and on about how much weight I was losing and blah blah. And honestly, it was a lot and I had a right to be proud. But then life happened and I regained a lot. I tried to reboot my regimen, but that I quit soon after that. I tried AGAIN some other time but couldn't even get started. Now I have regained (and I think I just plain GAINED) past my highest weight before and I'm MIS-ER-A-BLE. I hate going back to never being able to go shopping for any clothes that are cute again; I hate this constant foot pain (feet, actually, though one is worse than the other) again; I hate my fat face; I hate not being able to lift my legs to get into my pants again; I hate that I was too ashamed to see my friends last year because I had regained; I hate having to listen to co-workers about their workouts and know they must be ashamed of me. My family must be, too. I know none of them SHOULD be, but I'm not stupid enough to believe that they aren't.
I know I am.
So much work, wasted. I hate that.
I also hate that I disregarded my mother's advice. She said that arounf 275 I would need some support (like surgery) and I was too arrogant to listen. Ugh.
Currently, that is my new plan. "Fit n Fun by Thirty-One" (I'm currently 29, and I want to visit my friend in Puerto Rico). Cute title, but the thought of starting again makes me sick.
Something I should look into is a fitness buddy. But I am told that a fitness buddy should have similar goals/have a similar schedule to you, and I don't know many people like me (29, no kids, no sig. other, don't drive, way over 350lbs, etc). I can see why you would be similar, but do you need to be the same within' ten lbs or something? I don't think so, really... I just don't know where to start on that.